God is so Good. I praise Him that you no longer want to die. I know the feeling. Depression is a very serious illness. I pray for your healing and that you continue to get through your days with prayerfully joy and that every relationship in your life is healed. God bless you and I am so glad you are hanging in there. It gets better. I am living proof. God will get you through and even with laughter and joy. Please keep in touch! In Jesus name. Thank You, Lord, Thank You for Your child getting through this hurdle. Please bless her, be with her and all who struggle through every illness. For Your healings and blessings Lord we pray in Your Name. Amen! God is Good!!!