Thank you all. Returning back to this thread makes me feel so much better although times are up and down. I recently graduated last Tuesday with my masters degree in social work. But need so much help myself. I am not working and have an idol mind. I have been trying to read the bible daily and pray as well. Mourning the loss is hard. From the man I loved to my dad lying and promising me he'll be at my graduation ceremony. I'm glad I am not drinking everyday like before but I have not stopped totally. I need continued prayer and I thank you all.

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I am doing much better with life these days and I am not believing that life is better off with me not around. Mourning my dad even though he isn't dead was hard. I loved Kevin and lost him recently. But I love him so very much. I ask that you pray that we can at least talk and that I not lose another person I loved with all my heart. I am jobless, but I'm not doing so bad emotionally anymore. But my heart is broken so much. Thank you for all your prayers. Please pray he can forgive me and I can forgive him. And let him know how much I love him. I have been reading my bible everyday now and will start going to church on Sunday. Wishing he could go with me. I messed up the best thing I ever had. Thank you