please pray for Ouida who is contemplating suicide and I'm so depressed because I suffer from major depression and alcohol helps me cope but it makes it worse. I was thinking about taking medication to and my life but I know god has a plan if I not try to lean on my own understanding. I hate myself and a man named Kevin I loved hurt me emotionally and verbally and destroyed my relationship with my sister Lila. Please pray for me. And it's mothers day and although my mom and I don't talk because she abused me all my life I just feel hopeless and want to depend on a bottle but it. I'm going to die soon. Please pray for me