Paula I'm continuing to pray for you, but do take the advise given above, it's what we all should do. I was where you are today many years ago. It was only when I let go and turned it all to God that my life turned around and God gave me everything the enemy had taken away from me back better than it ever was before. So do let go and to trust the Lord. Get into a Christian supportive group like I also did of woman that where I was, we prayed together for one another, we kept company so we won't be so lonely. We even helped each other find work when any lost their's. it is very valuable to have a group like that, if there is none near you, why don't you start one? That can be a very good ministry for you and God will bless you immensely. Remember it is better to give than to receive and this is a way of giving unto the Lord and to others.
Lord guide Paula to where you want her to be and help her to let go and give all her problems and life to you. Bless, protect, provide for her, give her wisdom, and comfort as your perfect will is done in her life and all that concerns her. In Jesus precious name I pray, amen.