Months ago I lost someone I cared for. It was like she turned against me even though I apologized profusely. I haven't recovered since that. I pray to God everyday for relief from my issue and in the beginning my faith and hope was impregnable, but after the days and weeks go by I just feel it washing away into hopelessness. I really cared I really saw something leading to marriage. Now I'm just going crazy over the whole situation. I don't know what to do I feel as if my life is over and God won't hear me out. He has done so many other things for me and I thank him for that but this is the one thing I ask for and i can't get restitution from it. It's like he ignores this request to handle other things I don't even give a second thought to.

Hey, don't despair. Do you aknowledge God as God? Do you revere Him as a Mighty One who knows yesterday, today and tomorrow? Perhaps He has a different plan for you, plan to prosper and to give you hope?... Dear one, you can't demand your way like that- will you love Him no matter what? Is He enough for you? Don't treat God as a wish-granter... He loves you enough to die for you and has a plan for your life. Trust Him in your difficult today. He will take care of your tomorrow - just dont get a tunnel vision, keep your eyes open and thank Him - find lots of things to thank Him for right now and daily. With love, your christian family memeber.
P.S. I did go through a loss of a loved one (due to betrayal) with whom I saw a marriage in the future. Feel sorry for your heartache and will pray for GODS WILL for your situation.

When the Lord closses a door he opens another and the other is far greater than the one he closed. Is will is always the most rewarding. Keep following in obiedence and trust the Lord.