God has blessed me with a good life. I haven't had any true hardships like many of the posters here have. My issues are completely my fault. I constantly sin and I can't stop. I ask God for help, ask Him to forgive me, but then I'm back to sinning again a few days later. This has been going on for years and I fear I may be one of the seeds that Jesus talked about; the ones that are choked by thorns. I feel like God's voice is no longer present in my life because I kept ignoring it. It really is all my fault and when I am judged I hope that I will at least try not to blame God or make excuses. I deserve hell. At this point I would like for God to kill me. I'm sick of sinning and yet I'm not, if that makes any sense. If nothing else I am tired and would like to sleep. If I can't be transformed into your image, Lord, and it is your will, then please take my life while I sleep.

For those of you reading this take it as a warning.

Lord God, how this person must be hurting. I can feel for ive been in such a state. I do not want to be arrogant, but am. So just asking for mercy, for this person Lord, others, me. You did say Take heed, or be warned, for we do not always see our own faults-- until they are so bad and hurting ourself or others. Please forgive the blindness, the pride, whatever it is that hinders our coming to You. Sometimes the education, the blessings also, that is why the psalmist asked for just enough so we do not sin either w/ too much or too little. Have mercy on us, God.

Lord, please help these people. You know their needs. In the name of Jesus I pray and give thanks. Amen