I am Jacquelyn from Ohio. I feel awful and unworthy asking for prayer – especially since I have already begged God myself and my mom said I should just trust and if I falter in that I will disappoint him. But I guess I feel I could use a few more voices. I am having surgery on Thursday for my leg and am very nervous about it – pain level, and I have a DVT due to the fracture that is the reason I am having surgery and I had bilateral pulmonary emboli in July. They are clear now, but the thought of any further blood clots, or that happening again is SCARY. The doctors are confident, have a plan, and I am grateful for that. But I still could use prayer regarding it.
Also, a complication – well 2. One most would find important but I do. The first is I had diarrhea for 5 weeks like 5-6x daily and then at the most recent end 10x daily. I had C-diff, but for some reason when it cleared up, it got worse. They said it was my intestines and colon being irritated, but we realized they were upping the antibiotics for it and that really seemed to make it worse. So we got permission to stop the antibiotics and I was able to eat a little better and I prayed hard. Praise God to the highest, we got it under control. However, my um…so embarrassing, colon muscles haven’t fully returned to normal and so even with a solid one it feels like I am having diarrhea…very nerve-wracking because the diarrhea itself tore me down emotionally and physically. Now I am eating better and physically doing better but emotionally I still fear it returning. ESPECIALLY since Coumadin and Lovonox cause diarrhea for me and I have to be on Lovonox 1x daily now until Wed. and then Coumadin and the Lovonox 2x daily after surgery (the Lovonox for 5 days)…so I really need prayer the diarrhea stops and stays away…
The second issue is my nerves/mental state. I feel shaky, like there is a giant knot in my throat and stomach and chest all the time, like I am on the verge of tears. I know it is all anxiety and I am trying to reign it in, but I could definitely use prayer that calm and peace come over me instead of this feeling which I hate. Prayers for these things, and my overall well-being would be so appreciated.

If anyone will pray for me...I know I am unworthy, I would so appreciate it for these things. I so need the diarrhrea to stay stopped and I am having to take anti-diarrheals each day due to the Lovonox now, and I don't know if the pain medicine will stop that or not after surgery or what...but I would like to be um...normal. I know it sounds so dumb but after 5 weeks of diarreah, having the c-diff cured and still having it so much, it really tore me down. I need my msucles there to bounce back if you know what I mean. And I need to feel more strength vs. this anxiety of knots, verge of tears/or actually crying, and shakiness. I need this surgery to go well so maybe some of my fears can be put to rest about my future and what those blood clots were or why they happened. I know I am just a silly woman to most who read but it has been a bad bad year for my health and then the c-diff happened after a potent antibiotic, and well I explained the rest of it already in my previous message...I don't want to dissapoint God in faltering and asking for prayers from people but like I said...I thought a few more voices and it shall be done...I am sorry. If anyone hears me... Thank you for your prayers