I'm so scared. Sometimes depressed. Feeling guilty about resentment toward mother and like a leech. Husband lives next door with girlfriend and her 2 twenty something son and daughter and their significant others: 3 couples shacking up. I live here with my 2 kids: 17 & 12 and my mother moved in in 2016 after her home foreclosed and she retired. My husband doesn't pay court ordered child support but still has utilities on and mortgage and put car my mom bought so we could get out and me job in his insurance, no money for insurance at time. At first I was more depressed and not really trying to get work but past 1 1/2 years I either get no calls or no job offer after interview. Notany jobs with no degree orvtrade school but I need a job, need some money. The car is 2010 year elantra and I didn't try to go to community college orctrade school because I'm still married and don't think I'd get any or much aid in grants and hard to prove were separated since bills still in his name. Also, I really want to go to culinary program and do what I love: bake even though I don't know if I could live on that but the car wasntcreal powerful to begin with and I'm afraid if I sign up for the program which is also at another county and 40 minutes away the car will die soon and I won't be able to finish and wasted aid. Also I still need a job too and I'm not a spring chicken, I'm older so I'm already exhausted just running kids around and cooking, cleaning, laundry etc don't know how I can do school full time away from hom e and a job and family? I'm no diva. The jobs I've applied to are close to home but low pay; Walmart pays the most besides maybe hospital job I didn't get, dollar stores, grocery, convenience. My mother is buying the groceries and she isn't rich and her pension ended last month so money is tight with her, she is applying for a free phone minutes, needs new clothes. Mtvhusband is getting resentful. I don't want to be dependent on them and obviously it isn't a good thing. My mom could leave or die, she's 75, husband could shut things off. Die. I'm scared. I don't know what my future holds and I know this car won't last forever, maybe not long then I'm really in trouble without a car to go shopping, haircuts, run kids to appointments, after school activities, job, just get out of house. Buses aren't great around here plus hard to shop on bus, we shop every week and I have a small kitchen and one refrigerator. Also, hard to do laundry at laundromat if our washer dryer goes orcww have to move into apartment. Cant afford car but can't afford to not have a car, can't go back to no car and askingy husband's girlfriend to use car to grocery shop or kids events, my husband is a wimp with her also her daughter uses the car besides his girlfriend. I don't think my mom is happy here either, my son has anger issues and I think he's jealous of her and gets rude and obnoxious with her more than with me. My car seems to be slower than before and I don't know if its just because its a small car or its dying, it already has about 47,0000 miles on it. I need a miracle to buy another used car. I don't have money to get car inspected in march without a job and holiday is also coming which is stressful. Imvgrateful to have this car but it doesn't do well on snow and definitely not ice, I slid last year and felt brakes make noise when driving over ice. Prayers my car miraculously keeps going and I have money for inspection , snow tires and anything else. I can't ask my husband to help he's already keeping utilities on and has high balances. Was behind on mortgage for about 7 months and got paperwork for help with mortgage and maybe lower payment from mortgage company but I don't know if approved. I don't have money to pay off high balancesvor get bills in my name, utilities so high here and kids don't save energy. I want to pay the bills myself for me and to know they were paid and not worry about utilities being shut off if my husband doesn't pay or forgets. I know it's not realistic to think car will last forever but I think I would have axserious melt down if car died soon and we had no car to grtbout of house or get around. Prayers for a financial blessing or miracle. Prayers God gives mwcsome kind of sign if he wants me to go to school and aid to pay for it. I want to go to school but if its not meant to be I pray God somehow let's me know and takes away the pain and disappointment and I can somehow make it without going broke or homeless. Prayers I can take care of kids. Prayers I get a job but also can somehow take care of kids, housework, dinner and still take kids to dentist, doctor etc and not burn myself out physically and mentally. Prayers for a good thanksgiving and Christmas for family and I can get party together for my daughter and her friends and our family and have money to pay for food and stuff. Prayers we can buy a roaster to bake in since our oven is broke on inside and only have stove tops and no money to buy a new stove. Prayers our washer and dryer don't die. Prayers fleas on cats die I don't have money to take to vets for our 3 cats. Prayer I can afford to buy some new shits and undergarments for cold temps before pucked over. Prayers my mom gets free phone and some new clothes to wear. Prayers somehow my mom can make some extra money and finances improve. Prayers my family, in-laws and muss Bea get saved before its too late. Prayers my son, 12, starts to change for the better, he's bad and its physically and emotionally exhausting, he's not fun to be around. My husband filed for divorce February 2014 and we're still married and he moved on years ago being involved with simecwomwn online and in person and his girlfriend for past 4-5 years, no money for lawyer and indigent program at county bar association won't do free divorce because of custody and property/mortgage, they only do "simple divorces" and no money for divorce.I feel like I'm in limbo, don't know if there is hidden reason I'm still married to him? Punishment? Blessing I don't know about? He looks at me like a leech. I don't know what to do? I know Walmart isn't something to brag about but it pays more than other stores and if I could possibly go to school hospitals and nursing homes are shift work and retail may work around school schedule. If it wasn't for my kids I would pray to die even though I fear God, things look very bad for my future. My mom is my only human help and she's nice not 75 and a little slow. My husband is probably keeping utilities on for kids not me and he likes my mom. He works till around 2 am, no 9 to 5 or he would probably get kids plus his house is loaded up with his girlfriend and the 4 young adults sleeping in bedrooms and pets. No beds or bedrooms for our 2 kids. Prayers yet again for a jib asap and the car to keep running and also safely. Car is so important. Prayers for new phone, had this for about 3 years and its dying, acting up, things deleted, apps gone, can't reload. Prayers my kids do well in school and daughter graduates in June 2020, she flunked English last year and I still don't know if she passed and got credit for summer school, husband paid for it. She has bad teeth and needs root canals and cavities and needs dental school for root canals and insurance pay for root canals for minors only, she turns 18 in February. She also doesn't seem to care about her teeth no matter what happens I'm afraid she's not going to have teeth as an adult. Prayers for my health and weight. Prayers I can keep going to donate plasma to make $$ till I get a job or in addition to a job.
Thanks. God bless.

Culinary School, that's is very expensive for a person in your position, better off going and get your GED if you didn't graduated from high school, then get some kind of office courses so you can find a good job faster with benefit.
Lord help this woman to think clearly, and go get some courses less expensive where she has better chances of getting herself a better job with benefits. Help her get out of the hole she is in, also take away all her depressions, and give her confidence in herself. Let her see that if other women have done it, she can also do it too. Bring help to her, her children, and her mother. As you have your perfect will done in these people's life and their situation. Also touch her husband's heart and have him come to know you as his Lord and Savior, and be the husband and father he should be, as you break all bondage he has with that other woman or others out there. I pray in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, Amen!

Lord, please let your peace rest on this woman and her family... Bless her financial situation and her kids with the help they desperately need... Bring those who are in need into your salvation and let your love and mercy cover them all I pray in your name Jesus. Amen

(11-03-2018 09:46 AM)Guest Wrote:  Culinary School, that's is very expensive for a person in your position, better off going and get your GED if you didn't graduated from high school, then get some kind of office courses so you can find a good job faster with benefit.
Lord help this woman to think clearly, and go get some courses less expensive where she has better chances of getting herself a better job with benefits. Help her get out of the hole she is in, also take away all her depressions, and give her confidence in herself. Let her see that if other women have done it, she can also do it too. Bring help to her, her children, and her mother. As you have your perfect will done in these people's life and their situation. Also touch her husband's heart and have him come to know you as his Lord and Savior, and be the husband and father he should be, as you break all bondage he has with that other woman or others out there. I pray in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, Amen!

Thanks for prayers. God bless. I have high school diploma. Took some college credits years ago, general stuff bit no major or degree. The culinary program is at a community college that has a good program that was listed as top maybe 10 in state and if it was in my county, nearby I would definitely see financial aid department to see if any chance of aid since I'm still married and try to get in because I love to cook and especially bake but besides grant the college is in another county that is about 40 minutes away and I've never been there either and it would be a lot cheaper than a culinary school or trade school or 4 year college but im not a risk taker and am a wimp and a worrier but my ive had car now for 20 months and am afraid it may break down or die before I graduate. Its a Hyundai elantra and already has 47,000 miles on it. I don't know if I'm being wise or I have a lack of faith/not trusting god enough and I should go for it? I'm no diva but getting around on bus isn't easy or quick and no buses to this other county. A beauty school is closer to home by var about 10 minutes but its probably $15,000-20,000 I'd have to borrow money on top of loans unless there's scholarships and I don't know if I'd like being hair stylist and make enough money to live and pay back loans. Tried office in past years ago but my typing isn't very good and lost jibs over it.I can't stand blood and guts and could never change adult diapers without gagging so nursing/CNA is out I'm afraid or I'd go for that st community college and make good money nursing. I'm 51 too, tines ticking I'm afraid. I just wish God would knock me over the head and tell me what do do clearly because I'm confused and scared and making myself and others crazy. Night.

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(11-04-2018 08:37 AM)ShawnBlue Wrote:  Lord, please let your peace rest on this woman and her family... Bless her financial situation and her kids with the help they desperately need... Bring those who are in need into your salvation and let your love and mercy cover them all I pray in your name Jesus. Amen

Thanks for prayers and God bless. Need all prayers I can get because things are bad, can't depend on husband and mom in near future and its coming. I'm not young. I'm confused and don't know which way to go, the careers most do like medical/nursing and office aren't me: I don't like bllodxand guts and can't type fast. Age, 51 doesn't help either. I'm still married so getting financial aid could be tough. I'd like to get a divorce after all these years and biblical grounds. My life us too complicated for love now and obviously still married but it would be a blessing if I could meet a christian believer and get married in future and have a partner and companion. Night.

Heavenly Father bless this dear sister and help her find decent employment so that she can better take care of her family. Help her car remain in operational condition Lord. Lead godly people into her life so that she might have fellowship and help in her times of need. Show her Lord that You are both our salvation and ever present help in times of need. Give her insights into the ways You would have her go Lord and help her to place her complete and total trust in You Father.

I pray this in Jesus mighty name,

Amen

(11-04-2018 11:52 PM)Brother_David Wrote:  Heavenly Father bless this dear sister and help her find decent employment so that she can better take care of her family. Help her car remain in operational condition Lord. Lead godly people into her life so that she might have fellowship and help in her times of need. Show her Lord that You are both our salvation and ever present help in times of need. Give her insights into the ways You would have her go Lord and help her to place her complete and total trust in You Father.

I pray this in Jesus mighty name,

Amen

Thank you and God bless. Good night, it's 2:29 am here. Bye.

Can you do bookkeeping? They sell books in the bookstore, or you can borrow it from the library. I learn it from a book called bookkeeping made easy. I was alone with two little girls to support because my x-husband walked out on me leaving me broke and helpless. I practice with that book and was able to get myself a bookkeeping job, even though I had no college credits at all. They gave me a test on math and bookkeeping, I got the highest grade and the job from all the others there taking the test, Praise God! You just have to take a step in faith and ask God to be with you all the way and to open the doors for you. Go and explain to the financial aid department your situation, and to the culinary office too, you never know unless you go and find out. They may have special programs with special help for women in your condition, that you don't know of them. Don't be embarrass, embarrassment doesn't help anyone, but you have to look for help, and unless you go and ask for it no one will know your situation. Prayers do help and God will lead you where to go, but you have to take the first step in faith too, try it you may be surprised.
Lord help and guide this woman to get out of her situation, and to get the help she needs or to get trained so she can be able to find a job with good pay and benefits. Let her see your power and how you can still do miracles for us like you did for me many years ago, but we have to take the first step to get out of it, then you will guide us and open up the doors for us. Take away all her fears that seems to be paralyzing her and walk in faith with you. Lord help her to get out of that abusive situation soon. I pray in the mighty, powerful name of Jesus Christ, amen.