Paula, I hold you up daily from my part of the world. Know I cover you when you are probably asleep. I have to agree with your fellow brothers and sisters above. Get into the word, change YOU (as that is the only person you really have control over) and work WITH God. Paula, break free - stop looking at the negative, count one blessing every single day. For it is in giving that we receive. Look to God FIRST, not Tim or another human and then wait on his word. You are precious to God and he loves you more than you can imagine. Reach out to him at this time ok. AMEN