Been a loooong time since I posted a request here...

Okay you may not believe this or see this from me... but I have officially given up on my ex-boyfriend... yes, it's about time I can hear from you guys. Reason why is one: I've looked back and seen all the pain I've been through... And I've been through so much pain that I almost killed myself. So with that and him dating my former friend, I can say I'm done with him. I don't want him anymore... yet when I look back at the pain, I end up crying again... I don't want to be hurt like that anymore...

The other reason: ...I am falling for another guy. One who I have known just as long as my ex. We've hung out, had good times together, and seems like perfect boyfriend material! He even has admiration for me as well! ...Here's the problem though... He has feelings for another girl. More than for me. He's known the girl for longer than he's known for me. And he's falling for her... even though he knows I do love him... he told me he doesn't want to turn his back on the girl he loves (the girl knows he loves her but I do not know if she loves him back as much) for the girl he likes/admires (me)... He says he doesn't want to be the one to hurt me since I am and I quote "a caring, kind, wonderful woman such as [my]self." He says any man who may come after me (he's not my boyfriend, but he does admire me to be more than a friend) deserves all the love I can give them. And that I deserve any man that may come for me as well. He wanted me to promise to not let anything hurt me like that (ex boyfriend) ever again. Because he told me if I hurt I will fall. And if I hurt too much I'll fall so hard I'll never get up from it... He told me he cannot believe my ex would hurt me... or why he would hurt me like that because I don't deserve to be hurt like that. He told me my ex is missing out on something amazing: me. ...I cried a bit when he told me that. He wiped my tears from my face and said "don't cry. Don't ever cry in front of me. One: because it'll make you look bad and you deserve not to cry. And two: it'll make ME look bad if the girl decides to be my girlfriend and leave you alone since you do have feelings for me... and I don't want to be the one to hurt you..." He also told me he wished he knew me longer than the girl he wants to be with... otherwise things would be different...

Me and the guy (his name is Anthony) is a great friend of mine and I've known him for 5-6 years. He did tell me one thing though... if all else fails (meaning if the girl does not want him or he gave up on the girl because it's taking forever), then he'll come to me and officially ask me to be his girlfriend. Which he has a bit of a glimmer for me. He does have great admiration for me... and he's says I'm doing well gaining his interests little by little... Here's another thing... him and the girl he's falling for (Amber) have between now and this time next year to know whether they will be together or not. Should I wait for this guy to know if he'll get the girl or me? ...Or should I not...? He's a great guy. Handsome too. And a great friend. We're very close... we even kissed every time we saw each other... ...I know this could sound off but... I want your prayers for us to cross paths to be each other's soulmates and companions someday... But if he gets Amber and not me... I'll keep my promise to Anthony and will not get hurt (at least THAT bad) by this. What's so sweet about it is that he said if he does have me to be his girlfriend, he'll NEVER hurt me as bad as my ex Carlos did. He still cannot believe he put me through that much pain and that he doesn't deserve me if he were to hurt me like Carlos did, which he will not because he says he'll never hurt me nor leave my side... But the thing is he's falling hard for Amber. And he's sticking with the girl he loves than the girl he likes. He's committed to her even though he's not in a relationship with her which is a good thing. But the thing is I really love this guy. My friends are telling me not to give up on this guy and see where this goes between now and next year. They told me things can change and that he'll have me. But can that really happen even though his feelings for me are not mutual as of yet?

I really need advice and prayers for this... Please pray/give me advice on what I should do and go from here... Thanks.

~Mel-S