Hi, I don't really now where to start...

I'm in college and over the last 2 or 3 years I've felt quite far from God,
And I feel too ashamed to speak to anyone in my church. Basically I'm battling with lust- homosexual lust and it's breaking my heart an ruining my life and relationship with God. I know I'm not gay, I would also like prayer for a girlfriend as when I had one a year ago it made battling these desires alot easier. I know some people think it's ok to be gay but I really don't want it. I've never told anyone this so I'm really thankful to you guys. I just won't to feel close to God, and know deep inside that he loves me and to take away the burden of the constant judgement I put on myself.