Hi, I don't really now where to start...

I'm in college and over the last 2 or 3 years I've felt quite far from God,
And I feel too ashamed to speak to anyone in my church. Basically I'm battling with lust- homosexual lust and it's breaking my heart an ruining my life and relationship with God. I know I'm not gay, I would also like prayer for a girlfriend as when I had one a year ago it made battling these desires alot easier. I know some people think it's ok to be gay but I really don't want it. I've never told anyone this so I'm really thankful to you guys. I just won't to feel close to God, and know deep inside that he loves me and to take away the burden of the constant judgement I put on myself.

Father, I come to you in the name of Jesus in behalf of Zhadij. Father you know he is struggling with these feelings he is feeling. We know that this is not your will that he engage in any homosexual behaviour. Every good and perfect gift comes from you. You said in your word that you have come to give us life and give it more aboundantly. Satan has come to steal, kill and destroy. Help Zhadij to see the truth and how much you love him. Give him strength in his struggle and show him the path that you want him to choose. Send a Godly girlfriend into his life. Father, he knows what the right thing to do is so just take any attractions to sin out of his life. Satan will try to tempt him but greather is he that is in him that he that is in the world. Help him to know the truth. You said that we shall know the truth and the truth shall set us free. Satan I bind any hold that you have on Zhadij and I command you to take your hands off of his mind and his emotions in the name of Jesus. Amen......GOD IS GODD.......ALL THE TIME!

Thank you very much Ursula