Scott, sounds like you have been through a tough time and are now questioning God. Scott your sins were covered on the cross and when we ask to have our sins forgiven, then they are and we don't need someone else to ask for us. Your prayers are being heard and you must know that sometimes God says yes, sometimes he says no and sometimes he says wait. I waited and prayed for 10 years before I met my husband. Maybe you are being tested and pruned to produce much fruit in your life. God did promise to provide our needs abundantely according to his riches and glory by Christ Jesus. You will find great comfort, wisdom and answers by emmersing yourself in the word. attend church. (do not faint in the fellowship of the people). Be strong and courageous do not be terrified. Trust God, he will not fail you. Hold on. He will never leave you or forsake you. The enemy wil fill you with lies that say that God has forgotten you, you have no value, you are not forgiven and that you are not worth it. These lies can impact us severly if we let them. Do not let the father of lies deceive you. James 4 v 7. Resist satan and he will flee from you.