Child of God, your worth is not based on what you have, your worth is based on who you are. You are depressed because you can't have it your way. Guess what God's way is the way to go. He will not waste this wilderness experience. He is for you and I think that deep down you know it. You not getting what you want and being depressed is kinda selfish. You know that the evil one wants to steal your joy and you are letting him. God may have a man for you that is ten times the man you are grieving for. Yet you cling to the one you lost. Get out of bed, wash your face and take courage. Our God is for us. He said that he knows the plans he has for us, plans to propser us and to give us a hope and a future. You are in his plans and not excluded. Stop believing the lies of the enemy. You are more than a conquere by Christ Jesus. You can do all things through Jesus Christ who strengthens you. Today is the day of your salvation. You have not been forgoten by God, you have forgoten who you are.