Guest Wrote:If I knew how to report you posting here & talking about suicide I would because I find it upsetting.

I would ask that the site owner make a report as it seems you are serious & it needs to be reported.

Mel-S Wrote:Remember when I said I have already does this before and it doesn't work out for me? It doesn't. I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts since I was 13, possibly earlier... and only one person (my cousin who is a little younger than I am, and she also have been contemplating suicide since she was 9) knows about my suicidal thoughts as of late. I told my mom and dad once that if suicide wasn't wrong, I'd done it already... so they know how I feel at this point... my dad too was the same way... And I know about my little cousin's situations as well. Like her, it doesn't seem to work for her. I've been to therapy, counselors, etc... they always come back. I thank for the suicide hotline, but I have to decline since I did call it before, been to therapy and the whole works. Doesn't work for me, I'm afraid. I know suicide isn't a joke... but I've lost loved ones due to suicide... they too were saved. They too couldn't stand the turmoil of their lives... Some say they are in Heaven... some say they are in Hell despite being saved... They (my parents) does not know I've been suicidal since I was 13, yet they know I would have done it if it weren't wrong (so people say)... They think I don't think highly of suicide, but in reality I do... and I definitely do not want to put more stress or trouble that my parents are already in by going back to therapy for suicide. No. I will not do that... nor does it work, but I don't want to do that for the sake of my family. My prayers have been unanswered for almost a full year now... most of other ones have been unanswered for YEARS. My mom's smoking: worsened. My dad's health problems that's been there since 2004: worsened. I do not know what to do... I've called God over and over for help... I've tried listening for Him... I feel He hasn't answered me... or even reached to me for me reaching to Him... :( I know... I'm too young for this... but... life is harder than one might think at least for me, if you knew what has been going on from childhood to now... I would have killed myself years ago... still had those thoughts ever since... all I wanted was for my dreams to come true... all of them... since the age of 9, all I did was dream big... and years go by only to get disappointed slowly but surely... all I want are my desires to be fulfilled... for my family to be happy and healthy... for my exboyfriend and I to reunite and for him to be saved... many think they're (ex and his new girl) going to break up soon enough, just like he and I did and want me to just keep a sharp eye out for him when it does. Like my mom told me, she hopes his new girl (my former best friend) breaks his heart so he can feel the pain and see what he has missed and what goes around comes around... mom is a Christian, but I feel the same way. I'm hoping she does break with him soon. But I digress. My entire life has been turmoil-ridden and broken... more than ever. I've been reaching to God all this time... and I see or feel or hear anything... open minded and all... nothing... Please God... I need a miracle right now before I may end up hurting myself... you prayer warriors are worried about me, and I'm sorry if I have been... but life is too tough for me right now... I hope I don't end up killing myself... even though it does feel right at the moment... God Bless.

~Mel-S

Guest, you cannot report someone about suicide, because if you searched how many people actually posted prayer requests about suicide, whether it's themselves or loved ones, you would not be able to report them all. it's that many and it's something everyone faces in life, whether it's themselves or a loved one. You cannot report them for something like this. That's selfish, not helpful.