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Posted by Guest - 01-13-2011 04:16 PM
Revelation 21:5-7 5 He who was seated on the throne said, “I am making everything new!” Then he said, “Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.”
6 He said to me: “It is done. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. To the thirsty I will give water without cost from the spring of the water of life. 7 Those who are victorious will inherit all this, and I will be their God and they will be my children.

Amen
Posted by Guest - 01-13-2011 01:21 PM
Mel-S Wrote:Want to know what's been going on to make me have these thoughts?

~Mom had to go to the hospital during the beginning of the year
~I had been betrayed by who I thought was my best friend... she was the one who got with my exboyfriend... and SHE was the one who I poured my heart to, and I get betrayed in a crucial, thieving act.
~Dad had to go to the hospital yesterday morning (thankfully released several hours later)
~We had received news of a death in the family last night (it was my mom's uncle who died of cancer)
~I'm currently hurt and literally sick to my stomach and has had no sleep in the last 24-48 hours
-Dad had to go back to the hospital AGAIN tonight because he has blood in his urine (JUST Found out from my mother that he has a kidney infection...!)
-and Dad fell down the stairs as he was walking to the van so my mom can drive him to the hospital for said above reason and she doesn't know if he broke his arm when he fell or what (He has indeed broken his hand from the fall... AND he sprained or broken the opposite arm as well... :()

I also received an email from my exboyfriend earlier tonight... it read:

"You were not betrayed. She's (my friend who took him away from me) still your friend, regardless of what you may feel. This is what I would call shifting the blame from yourself to her (it's easier to do, after all). She is not a thief. If anything, I'm the thief. It's not betrayal, due to the fact that I specifically told you that we would never come to be. (it's been what... a year?) (<- and he said he didn't say 'never', like last time)

I thought that this was to stop. I'm sorry that you're going through all of this turmoil with your family. However, as I've said before, and will say for the last time, I will not be the one to save you. Leave her out of this."

As if my year and NIGHT doesn't get worse... I am this close to ending my life, actually I've wanted to end it since I was 13 but couldn't muster to do so... but my life is hurting so bad... I want my ex to be saved and to be my husband (so he will not have this attitude or thoughts in his mind and have heavenly thoughts again and we can be one with Christ together), I want all bad things to stop right now...

I will not date anyone ever again until my ex comes around (he says never one week, then maybe we can date again the next, the never AGAIN the next) and I will not marry or date anyone else. People are telling me you want someone to love and cherish you but it may not be your ex and stuff like that. I've said I don't want ANYONE else (IF) my (ex)boyfriend doesn't come around. NO ONE. I will be alone for the rest of my life if possible!

I want my family to stop getting physically and emotionally hurt because it's making me hurt 10 times worse.

I've been having suicidal thoughts as of late. Actually it's been ever since I was 13 years old. Possibly earlier than that. And these thought have gotten stronger than ever. I confess. I want to end my life, only if it didn't send me to Hell in the process. I'm not going to go to therapy or a mental hospital because I have done that and it just won't work. I'm praying and praying but for what cost? Lord please help me... fulfill my desires that I've been praying for almost a YEAR for...! I'm hanging on a thread... Help me please...! CryCryCryCryCryCryCry

Mel,

I know the betrayal you must feel. I felt that during my own experience. During the time that I was in love with my friend, his best friend (a friend that I had had since middle school and the one I met him through) was manipulating my entire social group. Every day was some new attack by her and thankful, the Lord has given me good friends who stuck by me during the whole time and never turned on me. However, part of it was to blame on why the man I was in love with and I did not get together (although, other, more important factors were truly to blame for us not being united). I had the very same thoughts you had during the summer and even got onto a bridge a couple of nights in a row, but I felt that I could not go through with it. Why? The Lord reminded me that the people around me, even my friend, loved me and would be broken if I did such a terrible thing. Yes, I was hurting so bad that I didn't know when the pain would stop--I didn't know that the Lord would help me or if I would drown in my own frustration. However, He reminded me that many of those people are not saved and that if I were to take my life, I wouldn't be showing them that I was a Christian--I'd be showing them that I was just like them. They are lost and need the light that shines through me--although it is me that I'm trying to exemplify--the Lord saved me once again, not from eternal damnation, but from my own destruction.

Mel, you cannot allow this to control you. It's obvious to me that your ex has moved on and although you don't always see it, you must believe me that I know what you are going through--and to be honest, when I was first told that my friend didn't want to be with me I swore I'd be alone (that's something I still have to work on to this day!). I thought my way was much better than the Lord's way. The only reason I say this is because I think you've blinded yourself with a fantasy--something I have done myself. I realize how hard and difficult this is to swallow and believe me it will take time to get over. I myself did not go to therapy, but I know that the Lord is the ulimate physician and that He will help you if you ask for it. Are you willing to ask Him to change your heart about the situation?

Rather than focusing so much on what Mel wants or what Mel thinks, why don't you ask the Lord for His opinion? He is able to fill your every desire and able to show you what you cannot see! He can show you what you TRULY want--He can and will heal your broken heart if you ask. However, you have to ask with a believing heart. Do you believe He will fulfill His promises to you? Part of the problem is that you don't know what He would have you to do.

So, I challenge you to open your heart--allow the Lord to show you what to do. Be open to Him, Mel. He's not out to get you--He's the friend that sticketh closer than a brother and He can fulfill every need that you have. He feeds the flocks of the air and flowers in the fields. (See the end of Matthew ch.6 and 7:7-8) I think the verses I mentioned will be encouraging to you. Go to Him--because I really don't think that you have been speaking to Him openly--you've been going to Him as if He were a magic gene, saying I want this and that (I did the very same thing), but He wants you to have more! He wants to fulfill your desires and go beyond!

I don't say these things to hurt you and I do not have a spirit of meanness...I just want you to know that there is someone out here who knows what you're going through, having been going through it for only a few months more than you--there is Light on the otherside and His name is Christ. Go to Him and truly ask for His help!

Please do not be afraid to talk to me and don't be afraid to speak to the Lord. He's the One who can ultimately help you.

Hope this has been an encouragement. Let me know how you are doing.

Sincerely,

Lost Love
Posted by Guest - 01-13-2011 10:17 AM
Mel, you can pray for whatever your hearts desire but does not mean you will have it. The evil one is the prince of the air because of sin. There will be a constant fight until we get to Heaven, where all is made new.

Keep us posted of how you are doing. We will continue to pray for you.

Bless

Mel-S Wrote:I really do not know what to do anymore... to keep fighting for my desires (whether you guys think it's right or not) or just give up on my life all together... I feel as if I am done with life and I just don't want to live it anymore without something to live for... I am going to continue to fight for my ex (whether you guys agree or not) and I will keep going to what I feel is right for me... Whether you guys may like my decision or not, it's nothing you or I can do anything about it to control it... That is my decision, yet I feel as if my life is not worth living when/if these things do not happen... I tried taking my life when I said I had those suicidal thoughts, because my desires are being all but vain to God... I just don't want to give up on the things I have in my heart, whether people agree with it or not... my mom doesn't agree with it, but I still go for it... my dad doesn't agree with it, but I still go for it... Many people may not agree with it, but I still am going to go for it... I think I should (again) step down from here until any further updates... I choose to keep fighting for the desires I believe God put in me. And that is all I'm going to say at this point. God Bless the rest of you. I will talk to you guys soon.

~Mel-S
Posted by Mel-S - 01-13-2011 09:36 AM
I really do not know what to do anymore... to keep fighting for my desires (whether you guys think it's right or not) or just give up on my life all together... I feel as if I am done with life and I just don't want to live it anymore without something to live for... I am going to continue to fight for my ex (whether you guys agree or not) and I will keep going to what I feel is right for me... Whether you guys may like my decision or not, it's nothing you or I can do anything about it to control it... That is my decision, yet I feel as if my life is not worth living when/if these things do not happen... I tried taking my life when I said I had those suicidal thoughts, because my desires are being all but vain to God... I just don't want to give up on the things I have in my heart, whether people agree with it or not... my mom doesn't agree with it, but I still go for it... my dad doesn't agree with it, but I still go for it... Many people may not agree with it, but I still am going to go for it... I think I should (again) step down from here until any further updates... I choose to keep fighting for the desires I believe God put in me. And that is all I'm going to say at this point. God Bless the rest of you. I will talk to you guys soon.

~Mel-S
Posted by Guest - 01-13-2011 06:55 AM
Mel-S Wrote:Want to know what's been going on to make me have these thoughts?

~Mom had to go to the hospital during the beginning of the year
~I had been betrayed by who I thought was my best friend... she was the one who got with my exboyfriend... and SHE was the one who I poured my heart to, and I get betrayed in a crucial, thieving act.
~Dad had to go to the hospital yesterday morning (thankfully released several hours later)
~We had received news of a death in the family last night (it was my mom's uncle who died of cancer)
~I'm currently hurt and literally sick to my stomach and has had no sleep in the last 24-48 hours
-Dad had to go back to the hospital AGAIN tonight because he has blood in his urine (JUST Found out from my mother that he has a kidney infection...!)
-and Dad fell down the stairs as he was walking to the van so my mom can drive him to the hospital for said above reason and she doesn't know if he broke his arm when he fell or what (He has indeed broken his hand from the fall... AND he sprained or broken the opposite arm as well... :()

I also received an email from my exboyfriend earlier tonight... it read:

"You were not betrayed. She's (my friend who took him away from me) still your friend, regardless of what you may feel. This is what I would call shifting the blame from yourself to her (it's easier to do, after all). She is not a thief. If anything, I'm the thief. It's not betrayal, due to the fact that I specifically told you that we would never come to be. (it's been what... a year?) (<- and he said he didn't say 'never', like last time)

I thought that this was to stop. I'm sorry that you're going through all of this turmoil with your family. However, as I've said before, and will say for the last time, I will not be the one to save you. Leave her out of this."

As if my year and NIGHT doesn't get worse... I am this close to ending my life, actually I've wanted to end it since I was 13 but couldn't muster to do so... but my life is hurting so bad... I want my ex to be saved and to be my husband (so he will not have this attitude or thoughts in his mind and have heavenly thoughts again and we can be one with Christ together), I want all bad things to stop right now...

I will not date anyone ever again until my ex comes around (he says never one week, then maybe we can date again the next, the never AGAIN the next) and I will not marry or date anyone else. People are telling me you want someone to love and cherish you but it may not be your ex and stuff like that. I've said I don't want ANYONE else (IF) my (ex)boyfriend doesn't come around. NO ONE. I will be alone for the rest of my life if possible!

I want my family to stop getting physically and emotionally hurt because it's making me hurt 10 times worse.

I've been having suicidal thoughts as of late. Actually it's been ever since I was 13 years old. Possibly earlier than that. And these thought have gotten stronger than ever. I confess. I want to end my life, only if it didn't send me to Hell in the process. I'm not going to go to therapy or a mental hospital because I have done that and it just won't work. I'm praying and praying but for what cost? Lord please help me... fulfill my desires that I've been praying for almost a YEAR for...! I'm hanging on a thread... Help me please...! CryCryCryCryCryCryCry

I UNDERSTAND...May the love of God restore your hope in life, give you faith and strength to endure, and renew your heart for the blessings He has for you. HE has a plan for you, Do not get up and leave the movie theatre of your life in the middle of the story. I KNOW God has GREAT things for you. In Jesus Name I pray

For I know the plans I have for you " says the LORD, They are plans for good and not disaster, to give you a future and a hope. ~ Jeremiah 29:11
Posted by Guest - 01-13-2011 06:27 AM
I contemplated suicide when I was with my now ex husband. He was extremely abusive & could have cared less if I lived or died. It felt as if there was a spirit of darkness surrounding him as he made our lives a living a hell. He left and the darkness lifted from my life.

I am at peace in my life now that he is gone. I continue to live my life by The Word of God & please HIM.

Make the changes you need for you. Sit out a semester or two from school. Go back to square one in life for awhile.

I have friends, family, those that genuinely care about me & walk the walk, not just talk the talk. I am VERY happy & at peace with my life & the choices I am making.
God Is Awesome!

You will not likely find that comfort in your immediate family that I believe you are seeking, it comes when you are on your own. But you can take steps to ease the load you are dealing with, that you relax & succeed, whatever that is & God's Will For you.

As to your ex boyfriend, why would you want someone who does not want you? Even if you felt that he is the one that you are to be with?

My ex husband said all sorts of things to me to make me believe I was his, it was of God, & he had many plans he said also were of God. Yet he practically destroyed my life in total then proceeded to kick me to the curb.

God Loves you, Mel. Let yourself grieve the loss of your boyfriend. Live a life that is doable for you. Lower that bar you have set for yourself. He Will not turn His Back On you unless you slam the door shut.

The beauty is soul beauty, knowing that we are living our lives in every way possible that we are pleasing to HIM.

God Wants us to focus on HIM, not the world, or to worry when we are rejected. Life goes on.

Love out Mel. Love your parents, love no matter how bad you want to give up.. keep on loving & giving. It is what God Wants us to do.

He Has Shown me unbelievable things since my ex husband has been gone. You do not have to be perfect. It is by His Grace we live. Put on The Armor of God & walk boldly through life. Don't give up.
Posted by Guest - 01-13-2011 05:29 AM
I looked up suicide attempts online & it is to be reported.
plain as day it says it.
Those that have abortions before they come to Christ may not know the difference that it is wrong, as many non Christians do not understand that life begins at conception. Those that are Christian & choose to do this fully knowing the difference are held to a different standard I believe by GOD because they do know.
We all pay a price for sin, whether here or on Judgement Day.
ANY & EVERY health professional will tell you that someone who is talking about suicide & seems intent on carrying out the act should be taken seriously & that there be intervention.
That is just common sense.
The Lord Gives some wisdom & sense & others remain foolish.
We all choose.

Guest, I would suggest that you go online & look up online suicide attempts. There are instructions of how to handle it.
You for some odd reason believe that I am posting this for vanity or attention. Enabling a person that is seriously contemplating suicide by not intervening somehow to help them is foolish.




Guest Wrote:
Guest Wrote:I'm a healthcare professional & it is foolish not to take suicide threats seriously. Facebook has a place to report suicidal threats.

Selfish? As Christians we do not believe in abortion or murder.

Suicide is murdering of self.




Guest Wrote:
Guest Wrote:If I knew how to report you posting here & talking about suicide I would because I find it upsetting.

I would ask that the site owner make a report as it seems you are serious & it needs to be reported.



Mel-S Wrote:Remember when I said I have already does this before and it doesn't work out for me? It doesn't. I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts since I was 13, possibly earlier... and only one person (my cousin who is a little younger than I am, and she also have been contemplating suicide since she was 9) knows about my suicidal thoughts as of late. I told my mom and dad once that if suicide wasn't wrong, I'd done it already... so they know how I feel at this point... my dad too was the same way... And I know about my little cousin's situations as well. Like her, it doesn't seem to work for her. I've been to therapy, counselors, etc... they always come back. I thank for the suicide hotline, but I have to decline since I did call it before, been to therapy and the whole works. Doesn't work for me, I'm afraid. I know suicide isn't a joke... but I've lost loved ones due to suicide... they too were saved. They too couldn't stand the turmoil of their lives... Some say they are in Heaven... some say they are in Hell despite being saved... They (my parents) does not know I've been suicidal since I was 13, yet they know I would have done it if it weren't wrong (so people say)... They think I don't think highly of suicide, but in reality I do... and I definitely do not want to put more stress or trouble that my parents are already in by going back to therapy for suicide. No. I will not do that... nor does it work, but I don't want to do that for the sake of my family. My prayers have been unanswered for almost a full year now... most of other ones have been unanswered for YEARS. My mom's smoking: worsened. My dad's health problems that's been there since 2004: worsened. I do not know what to do... I've called God over and over for help... I've tried listening for Him... I feel He hasn't answered me... or even reached to me for me reaching to Him... :( I know... I'm too young for this... but... life is harder than one might think at least for me, if you knew what has been going on from childhood to now... I would have killed myself years ago... still had those thoughts ever since... all I wanted was for my dreams to come true... all of them... since the age of 9, all I did was dream big... and years go by only to get disappointed slowly but surely... all I want are my desires to be fulfilled... for my family to be happy and healthy... for my exboyfriend and I to reunite and for him to be saved... many think they're (ex and his new girl) going to break up soon enough, just like he and I did and want me to just keep a sharp eye out for him when it does. Like my mom told me, she hopes his new girl (my former best friend) breaks his heart so he can feel the pain and see what he has missed and what goes around comes around... mom is a Christian, but I feel the same way. I'm hoping she does break with him soon. But I digress. My entire life has been turmoil-ridden and broken... more than ever. I've been reaching to God all this time... and I see or feel or hear anything... open minded and all... nothing... Please God... I need a miracle right now before I may end up hurting myself... you prayer warriors are worried about me, and I'm sorry if I have been... but life is too tough for me right now... I hope I don't end up killing myself... even though it does feel right at the moment... God Bless.

~Mel-S


Guest, you cannot report someone about suicide, because if you searched how many people actually posted prayer requests about suicide, whether it's themselves or loved ones, you would not be able to report them all. it's that many and it's something everyone faces in life, whether it's themselves or a loved one. You cannot report them for something like this. That's selfish, not helpful.

Yes but this isn't Facebook. And Christians do have abortions if of free will choice. And Christians commit suicide because of mental disorders or health reasons or personal issues. And suicide isn't a threat, it's a side effect to a certain disorder. Also could be a demonic attack on them to have them contemplate it. This isn't facebook, and again you need to see how many people actually have said things about suicide here. Thank you. It's serious, yes, but it doesn't mean you have to go and report someone for it. The act of reporting someone about this is foolish indeed if you so happen to look at other request with this topic.
Posted by adoring1 - 01-13-2011 04:55 AM
Mel...there are no guarantees as to what God will do. None of us is God and only he knows what is best for you or me or any of us...and he will do what is best. But if you trust him and do the work that leads you to be stronger...he will honor that work and make you whole. That is the only guarantee that there is. The one thing that is certain is if you don't you will continue on as you are which will lead to things becoming worse and to your ultimate destruction. We have prayed for you, with you and over you for sometime now...it is time for you to decide if you will follow God or not and accept his leadership or not. We cannot negotiate with Him...as I shared...he is in control not us. But if we follow him and allow him to lead us our lives become better. When we can say honestly your will Lord and not mine as Christ did...we find our way to peace and to his protection. I pray you will come to embrace this and find peace and hope in your life. You can have a good life Mel...but it is all in how you choose to look at it and is truly up to you. Your part is to trust him and to accept his will. May the God of Creation reach your heart and continue to open your mind and guide you. In the name of Jesus...Amen!
Posted by Mel-S - 01-12-2011 09:10 PM
So... if I were to... not kill myself... and try to "make my life better (but how)" but still pray on these desires and hope they come true exactly the way I prayed for... then... will God work on making them true...? I've been through so much turmoil... I need these things to happen so bad... it's more of needing these things... I don't care for money or fame or to be something truly big... I'm just a person with big dreams... and the way things are right now, it's like they are not going to happen... none of them... and that's why I'm afraid of the future... that these things won't happen and my future would not be the future I wanted to have, you know? ...why I'm so afraid of life as I know it... I mean... I want to choose it, I want to choose life... it's just so hard to live it. I'm trying and hoping to not kill myself because I could lose my miracles because they might happen before I die... if I were to die... These suicidal thoughts have been going off and on since I was 13... because whenever I pray, things get worse or things happen the exact opposite way I pray for... like...

Like... If I don't kill myself... will there be a chance that my exboyfriend will come back to me, even though he has another girlfriend...? ... and be saved, if I don't kill myself...? I'm still pining for him so much... Will my mom stop smoking for good? ...Will my dad be healed from his health problems? ...will I actually be that animator I wanted to be since I was 9...? ...ever since these situations happened, I could not go to school for 2 days... and I could be 'dropped' from the courses or college all together if it were up to the college administration... will all of my desires, and they are my deepest ones, be fulfilled...? all of them...? I'm trying to trust God... and not take my life... but I'm scared at the same time... I'm scared...

God... I'm sorry! ...I know you're grieving for me... I know if I take my life, whether I live or die from it, there are consequences either way... and I'm scared of what my future holds... I don't want a life I do not want to have... meaning that my desires be unfulfilled and all hope in those are lost forever... I want a life where these desires that are my deepest are fulfilled and I can be happy again... I want things to turn around fast and now... my desires mean my life... and as you can see, I threatened to take my life when all seem lost and hopeless... You know, Lord, that I really want... and NEED these things to happen because I'm scared to know whether these things will happen or not, and I don't want a life I do not want to have... I don't want to give up on my desires... NONE of them, no matter what my life seems now (which is a wreck right now) and many things are unanswered or gone worse than before... but I still want these things... I'm trying my hardest to wait and have faith that all of these things will happen... I don't want my mom to die because of her smoking troubles... I don't want my dad to develop more health problems and succumb from them... I want them both to live long enough for me to get married to my exboyfriend... I don't want to marry anyone except him... Another man (whether I know him or not) is not what I want... I am holding myself off until You work on Him somehow, because even though he has another girlfriend, he still isn't saved... And I feel I can be that Godly wife for him... he said he wasn't happy with me, but things can change to have him miss me and be happy with me once more... just him I want to marry... otherwise, I don't want to marry at all if he isn't my husband at all... A house in Japan for us (me and my ex) to live in, which is where I wanted to go since I was a small child... kittens, for me to gain weight (which is nearly impossible right now thanks to these things happening and my schedule and eating fast food definitely won't help much)... all of these things and more is all I ask for... that's all I can ask for... I don't want anything else... Lord, I'm sorry... I want to have my life... but I'm just afraid to live it... I'm afraid... help me Lord... my future is at stake... a future only I could want... nothing more or less, just these things... All of these things mean everything to me... please help me... I can't take it anymore God... Forgive me... just show me how my life is worth living again... I'm going to try to not take my life... but I just don't know how to live my life and still expect these things to happen... will they happen Lord...? Will all of these things I could ask for happen...? Show me they will... please Lord, show me that they all will... they mean my life to me... Forgive me and help me please... please... My desires are as deep as the seas you created... please... please work on fulfilling them... but help me and show me my life is still worth living somehow... because i don't see it worth living anymore... please God... help me.
Posted by adoring1 - 01-12-2011 08:19 PM
Mel, I want to share something with you that a very wise person mature in Christ told me many, many years ago. I did not really believe her when she said it until I saw it for myself...but I did see it...and nothing in this life has effected me more. This is what she told me...the date of your birth and the date of your death were written in the book of life before the foundation of the world. None of us is born...and none of us die without the permission of God. You may attempt suicide but if it is not your time...you will not die...however you can maim yourself to the point of losing your ability to walk or talk or a variety of things. Being very young at the time and very hurt and willful, I did not believe...and then a young woman I knew who had been made pregnant by a young man and then dumped by him after he forced an abortion onto her... tried to end her life. She failed, but she had chosen to jump off of a driving bridge into rocky and churning waters in the town where we lived. She broke her neck and spent the next 26 years in a wheel chair...with constant lung, bladder and skin infections the combination of which eventually took her life years later. Mel...I will tell you what I learned from that...God is in control...not us. God did not allow her to die out of mercy...he gave her time to repent and time to ask for his forgiveness...but there were consequences for her actions that reached much farther than her own losses. Her father died broken by the fact that his only daughter...suffered so. Her only brother spent time in jail for attempted murder of the young man who betrayed her. Her mother slowly lost her way and ended up dying from acute alcoholism. Only her father lived a normal life span and functioned and took care of her...but he never fully recovered from the loss of the life he had so hoped she would have. The young man that she pined for so also married a woman 2 years later and had 4 children...his response to the whole thing??? "She was a very disturbed girl and I knew I did not want to be married and have children with her". She just had too many problems for me to deal with. His marriage to the woman he chose is still on-going... This young woman gave up her future for nothing...NOTHING! Many years later I heard her speak at a church in our community...she had many regrets but most centered around the fact that she did not trust God and that she had tried to end her life and how it had impacted those who really loved her. Mel...the thing is...if you decide to do this...no-one can really stop you...but I suggest that you consider all that has been said here today. You say that life is worthless...and I understand your feelings...BUT despite how you feel...there is great worth...a mother who has loved you all your life...a father who provided for you until illness prevented him from being able to...youth and strength and decent health being among them. It is time for you to learn to stand...someday you will have to stand on your own...we all do. You need to focus on making your own life better...one day at a time...learn to drive...learn to cook...learn to see the good in small things. To find your way out of your personal hell...you must do your part...and when you do...God will do His. The first step may be to apologize to your God for threatening to kill yourself. He gave you life... it grieves him greatly...and then help your mother...give her support in this difficult time...she needs you now. Step outside of your own pain and help someone...it truly will make a difference in how you function and feel over time. Or choose not too...and continue to remain so self focused that the pain grows and grows...it really is a choice that is in your own hands. How do I know...because many years ago I WAS YOU! I chose to be different...I chose to trust God and do the therapeutic work...I chose life! It is my greatest hope that you will too.
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