what is it exactly you want from us?
you keep coming here & saying, Help, pray for me.
what do you want?
exactly.


you're talking suicide mel & that is serious & really you should get to a mental health professional & some help asap.
talking suicide is not a joke.
we are not making fun of you but you come here & want help & talk of suicide.
YOU need to get some help right where you are, immediately.
Pick up the phone & call a crisis line. Get into counseling.
we can pray for you here, but you have to do the work from your end & with GOD.
if you are suicidal, call this # 1800-SUICIDE
if you are afraid that they will trace the call? then hit the buttons on your phone they won't see your # but talk to someone on the phone or inperson & do so until this time of crisis in your life subsides.
your mother is probably very concerned about you & is overwhelmed I'm sure with all of what is going on in your lives.
As to school, if it's that difficult commit to staying out of college after this semester until you reground yourself.
I pray that God Gives you the courage to pick up the phone & get some help. You are also so prideful right now that you won't get the help you are needing & this is also not of GOD.
We are saying these things out of love, wisdom, having our own share of things to overcome in life. We all face trials in life, that's part of living.

Mel-S Wrote:Things are not working out for me at all... I appreciate the comments, prayers, etc... but seriously, as soon as I posted, something else had to ruin my day. My mom yelling at me. Saying if something were to happen to both of us (meaning her and my dad) I'm going to end up getting checked into an institution because I cannot take care of myself or do anything for myself. She says all she does is serve me food (since I cannot cook) and do everything and I don't do a thing for myself. I'm 'messing up in school' but the term JUST started and this situations have gotten me to stay home and she told me herself I had to stay home so HOW am I messing up in school when classes JUST started back and SHE told ME to stay home because of the inclement weather and dad being in the hospital?! HOW AM I MESSING UP IN SCHOOL? Tell me! My mom is bringing my already low spirit lower. As my day (as painful as it is to wake up to it) is already messing up. My mom told me my dad is in a lot of pain in the hospital because of the broken hand, broken opposite arm, and his recent kidney infection on top of his heart problems. NOW can you tell me why my life isn't worthless? How can I be afraid of death when I want to kill myself? I'm just afraid where I will end up if I do it, which is why I haven't done it! I'm afraid of life in general. I do not like life as it is right now. I cannot take charge of my own life, because I have no where to go at this point... no where at all. I'm still stuck at home, with my mom mad, angry, worried, etc. about my dad in the hospital and ME in this state. Mom thinks I do not care for her or my father anymore just because I went on here to post my prayers/comments before I could have the chance to say good morning to her. And now I'm getting yelled at and getting these bad comments from her. My life is hell, tell me again why it's not worth killing myself over... I'm lost entirely... Lord... what can You do to turn things around... i mean right this second? The world is falling at my feet... and I'm afraid I may up falling with it... Help...

~Mel-S