Dearest Mel,
I am praying for you especially hard because I have been there. It is not worth it. God has a plan for you. He made you perfect the way you are. Dont let the enemy win - dont let the enemy convince you that your life is worthless. Love yourself. God loves you, thinks you are perfect, and made you to be who you are. Ask the holy spirit to fill your mind body and soul. Ask God to carry you through this tough time, and protect you from the enemy. Imagine a gold light circling through your body, ridding of all of the black horrible stuff and ask God to embrace you. You will feel it I promise!
What do you want in life? children, happiness, marriage, etc - how will you do that if you let the enemy win?
You, and everyone else here deserves continual happiness, its not for other people its for YOU!
Stay strong!