AMEN! I am SO glad you are going to give God Another chance, that you see eternal life!
Try to remember in your heartache what the bible says about suffering. As a Christian you will suffer.
If you can get ahold of a concordance, or a small bible, perhaps utilizing it, when you are depressed, word search the bible, to find comfort.
In Heaven, there is a new order, the last will be first.
Think about that. It is not the, "have's," of the world that we are to be jealous of or worried about fitting in with, it's our love for Christ Jesus, our walk as a Christian, the state of our soul.
You can self employee right where you are, by reaching out to others in prayer, always giving thanks to GOD. You can make a huge difference in your life, in other's lives, when committing to CHRIST, as his servant. We are here to serve HIM & then we know True Riches.
I will personally stay in defense of GOD, that it bothers me to hear others blame HIM. "And grieve not the Holy Spirit of God, whereby ye are sealed unto the day of redemption."—Ephesians 4:30.

What I do when I don't understand why things turn out as they do, I seek God For answers & I usually find them.
That is the beauty of GOD. HE Is ALL. Thus when we are discouraged, hurt, & when we are happy & life is going smoothly, we give HIM THANKS. HE IS our ROCK.
To hear you say you are giving God another chance, is WONDERFUL.
If there is but one thing you do, during your days, pray. Give thanks to GOD. HE Works things out for HIS GLORY! In Heaven there is a new order. This life is in passing, there's no perfect here but GOD, & when this world passes away, the separating of the wheat from the chaff. Give thanks to GOD. HE Will never leave you. EVER.
Light the fire of your soul with God's Eternal Light. Focus on Heaven, not this earth, it is in passing, there will be a new Heaven & a new earth.
I am THRILLED you are giving THE LORD another chance. AMEN & AMEN!!!

If you can, make this your work, that you are never unemployed, without something to do, your purpose defined, that you REJOICE & save souls. It is ETERNAL LIFE that we are working toward. God Bless you!

iwant2know Wrote:Thank you all for your concerns and intentions. I have decided to give God a chance once again. I will learn to ask his forgiveness, give thanks and talk to him more. This time I will take things slowly and try to stay focused.