Tania, God does not need us to defend him, he can defend himself. The father of lies has got you convienced that you are not worth it. You have no value and that God wouldn't want you. I know how you feel and can tell you that this God does love you for sure, done deal. Don't give up on yourself Tania, love will find a way. It is the greatest gift of all. God will continue to love you for eternity, no matter what. Love covers a multitude of sins, yours, mine, ours. Blessings Tania, you are valued, and were, and are worth the cross. Don't trust your feelings they will lie to you. Daily choose to trust Jesus.