I am totally with Mell here. I posted few times and Tanja replied. And andgry words that followed and open show the annoyance are not helping at all.
Tanja, you are precious and see you as God would already - through the blood of Christ, washed, clean, purified, ..saved, born again, perfected, a reflection of Christ. God sees yesterday, today, tomorrow - you know that, right? He is compassionate... He is patient with us all and with you too. You are precious in His eyes - that is for sure - I can't prove it to you - I know it for sure. Understand only one thing that life here is temporary and God sees eternity and we are created for eternity. Eternity either with Him or without. As far as passing life here is concerned, the troubles we bring on ourselves and the attacks enemy throws at us God uses as tools to form in us something for eternity and to darw us closer to Himself - a place where we ultimately find joy and peace and satisfaction. Things that we do here (get married, work,etc) they are temporary and do not bring real fulflment. Every situation (and the one you are in too) has some joys and advantages but ultimately they are all filled with sorrows and trials and are just tools to bring us to realisation that we need God. But if we do give our lives over to Him and enter into the relationship with him through the blood of Jesus and start getting to know Him and use every sad part of our life experience as a fuel to run closer to Him, everything will work for our ultimate good, though some sadness will inevitably be on our way for this world is marred with our sin and is passing... You are loved and I will pray for you for some time.