I reread what you write here, I feel insulted in my spirit because you blame God for what you are lacking, that you smite God, beware.

If you want prayer, ask. We can pray for you that you choose Christ.
But my spirit is taken back, in defense of GOD, by your words @ HIM WHO IS ALL.

that's my

iwant2know Wrote:I want to pray but everytime I get the nerve to I feel sick. As in the past the answer has always been "no". I have had enough of the rejection. No matter what it's as if I don't matter. I don't deserve a thing including sanity and I find it very difficult to want a relationship with something that does not want a relationship with me. It's just something I can not bring myself to do. It's like pondering whether you should ask you boss for a raise when you know the answer is going to be no. There's only so much humiliation one can take.