Tania if you continue on in this same way you will become a bitter old woman alone and broken. God is waiting for you to turn to Him...to seek Him...to acknowledge his presence and to seek and surrender to His direction. If you choose to continue to reject Him he will let you and you will remain exactly as you are alone and miserable...it is called free will. We as prayer warriors can pray for you until our lips are numb...but unless you choose to believe and pray for a change of heart it will have no effect. God only acts for those that are His...not those who thinks he humiliates them. You are writing your own epitaph...if you want your life to change...it does not start with others or with God... it starts with you and your opening yourself to him. Lord help this woman to have a change of heart. In Jesus name...Amen!