Tania, get up out of bed, shake the dust off your feet and choose to live. Read the purpose driven life and you will know why you are here on earth. This is not our home, we are just travelling through. as long as you are feeling sorrow for yourself you will be unable to go forward. You are worth loving and have self esteem issues. Until you find your identy in Christ and believe in yourself you will continue to wallow in self pity. I was a single parent for 10 years. I prayed for 10 years and God did grant me what I wanted. Who knows what tomorrow will bring you may only be a prayer away from something great. Quitters never win and winners never quit. Which one are you? You my friend are more than a conquerer by Christ Jesus. He longs to hold you in his arms. Your tears are stored in a bottle because they are so precious to Jesus. He died for you, what more can you want or ask for? Feel this right now, I am reaching out over this channel and I am hugging you. I am holding you in my arms and telling you everything will work out. I pray a real live person will walk into your home today and say these exact words, encourage you and that you will not sink further into the pit of dispair. Take up your mat and walk. You must put your foot into the water for the sea to part. Dig deep and fight for yourself. You have value and you are loved, even though you may not feel it. It is there for the asking. Talk to God he is waiting at the door for you. Just knock, and the door will be opened, seek and you will find.