Mel, free will, do what it takes to get it right with GOD.
Who here said they are angry with you? A post that it is upsetting when you come here continually angry with God, yes, that is upsetting.
You come here & ask HIS WILL, then YOU GET ANGRY WITH US when we post HIS WILL BE DONE.
You are angry Mel. You are angry at your circumstances at God, at us for posting HIS WILL BE DONE.
Your life might not be wortha 2x4 right now to what you see & perhaps not. Maybe your roof is leeking you are starving to death,
your mother smokes & blows it in your face all day long. For this I am sorry, but you CAN CHOOSE & you don't. You can try to move, you can apply for assistance, if it's that bad, go to the rescue mission, you don't have to hang on to this guy that is rebuffing you, it's your choice. You choose to stay angry at God, at us when we say, God, YOUR WILL BE DONE, For Mel.
I'm sorry you are going through a hard time, but guess what? So are most of us, in our own way, we too are suffering because as Christians we suffer.
Noone told you not to post here, noone told you they are angry with you (perhaps that your comments in continual anger of God that is not ok in my view)..
I think Mel has not landed as far as God May Intend for you to land that you finally appreciate what you do have.
I am sorry you are suffering but I do not anymore hear you giving HIM PRAISE or joyous for what you have.
Free will Mel. Everyone wants to see you heal, to be happy & praise The Lord. You are the one that is so immersed in self pity that you are unable to see & what is important to see The Glory of God.
I don't know why you got banned at the other site, perhaps you came in being mad at God, maybe prayer in anger at another's response to you saying, "HIS WILL BE DONE." I have no clue.
I pray you get off the pity pot & quit feeling sorry for Mel. It's not about you Mel, it's about GOD. I pray you heal. I don't believe anyone here is against you or angry with you. You are making this all so hard on yourself you can't even sort through it all.
Perhaps taking time between you & God is the answer.
Noone here has rejected you, you come here, post then are angry when we reply. Our wounds are only healed with CHRIST.
Maybe you have to crawl in your shell to heal.
I see nothing but honest prayer here for you, ongoing. But I see you continuing to post angry responses to our replies.
It's not up to you to please anyone other than GOD & I would suggest that you work on that because that is where true peace lies.
God Bless you & I am quite sure everyone agrees the same.
Trust in HIM, who is our Savior!
Mel-S Wrote:With all these posts here... I feel like I'm the worst Christian here. No one really understands why I desire these things... I don't have many people in my life... I rely on my parents a lot... I can't live for myself. I cannot cook, I cannot clean, nor sew, nor how to pay taxes. I don't feel like working most of the time, and I feel sick every weekend beforehand (including today). And if I were to die tonight... chances are I might not receive eternal riches... Because of your reactions to my posts, and also my mind/heart set... Can God understand why I desire these things...? No one really has a clue what I went through since childhood to now... I rather not go into a lot of detail on that either, because I might end up either making you guys more angry... or feel sorry for me out of pity. I try talking to people who I believe could understand... but no one could. I tried therapy; didn't work... I even talk to God every day and night... and nothing changes and things go from bad to worse. My life has been going down instead of up throughout the years. I'm not angry at God... I'm more angry at myself and angry at what my life has become or may become because my desires might not be realized and I could be making you guys even more angry the more times I post a request... which is why I felt like leaving and not post again... because my post always make you guys angry... especially when I speak my mind on some things... It's heartbreaking to say the least... I feel like I'm giving Christians a bad name... I'm sorry. I just don't know what to do here... Do I stop praying all together... or do I just stop posting my heart for the world to see with the risk of angering some people, like I have angered some of you...? I don't know who else to turn to at this time except God... but God put people here on earth to come and talk to as well... that's the thing, I just don't know what other people to turn to... as I have said I do not have many people. I feel alone when it comes to subjects like this... it's like something you don't want to hear, and I understand... maybe I should just go on my own for a while... with God's help... if I angered you guys, I'm sorry... and to withhold any more anger here... I should take my leave for now. I might be back in a few months or something. I've said it once, but I thought I would give it another shot... but maybe I should have waited a bit longer. Thanks for everything. I'll post some other time... keep praying for me... but remember... these desires are all I have left... And if you really knew what's going on besides the stuff I have posted... you may understand why. God Bless.
~Mel-S
