One day gone, 2 more to go... today would have been perfect since I was stuck at home with nothing to do... with tomorrow and Sunday of me going to work... I don't know if I can see him... I really want to see him, I mean it's been 8 months and God knows how much I really want to see him... Does God really not want me to see him, even it's for a day? It's hurting me inside and it'll be God knows when he'll be back to MD again... please Lord... have me see him again... to talk to him and spend time with him... He's within my reach and even I would do anything just to see him... because I love him so unconditionally that I call him my forever lover even when we are apart for now. Please have him make a way for me to see him, Lord... with all of the other prayers you know that I pray so often... please grant this prayer... this year is almost over... and it's been one of the worst I've ever had... if not, thee worse. Amen.