Im feeling weak and weary friends....its so hard to hang on to a man who doesnt want me. Oh how I long for us to be a family again! It hurts to see other families together. Yesterday was my birthday dinner at his parents where I am living. He came and gave me a card and birthstone charm from Ethan. I caught him staring at me throughout the night. Im trying not to read into it because I cannot read this man! I dont know what to think anymore. I am trying to hold on but it hurts so much. He says he doesnt want me but he is not ready to file the papers so to speak. I dont know how long he will keep me dangling. I need extra prayers. I just want to be happy again.