Well...everything went fine. He seemed like his normal self. I dont know if thats a bad thing or not. I jsut look at the situation and dont know how we are going to get back. He mentioned some Wii tournament he signed up for at work thats some time in september. Our appointment which he hasnt said a solild YES or NO to, is september 2. I pray that he isnt choosing that over counseling. I am still in such agony and he seems fine and it kills me. He is so adament about me going on a camping trip wtih our friends this weekend. I dont want to go...every place I go where we used to go together is hard. I will just end up crying. I know he isnt being adament because he is up to no good. I truly feel he feels guilty that I spend so much time taking care of our son that he wants some of the burden of what hes done off of his shoulders if he knows I am having fun. It will be a long time that I will ever have "fun". Im not sure what is going through his head but sometimes thigns seem so hopeless. Pray for me friends! Thanks