Dear child of God, let me tell you one thing. Job 33:13 says-Why do you contend with Him?
For He does not give an accounting of any of His words/ matters. Also let me encourage You Job lost everything in his life and felt as though God forsook him , but his latter end he was greatly blessed. God is not unjust to make you cry and He takes pleasure in it. He also must have shed tears when your dear Dad passed away. Remember John 11:35 Jesus wept. When martha cried telling Him about Lazarus death, he also shed His tears with her. He is God of compassion. He is working something to compensate you richly for the loss that you have faced in the family, and He is Your Father. You just have to receive Him in the place of your earthly father, not just as God. Hebrews 9:27 says-it is appointed for men to die once. also bible says Rev 21:4 says He will wipe away tears from their eyes. Dont let satan to tell you that you have lost everything and the Lord has let you down. No my dear, here you have to stand for Christ, as He is resurrection and Life, and prove to your unsaved family members that Your redeemer lives and oneday You will see your dad at home. He will never leave you in this state. He just waiting for you with His outstreched arms to receive you. He loves You just run to HIm. Jesus will never put you to shame when you trust in him and look to Him. when you go thorugh the furnace you will come forth as gold. God will reveal His glory through You to others and you can strengthen others who are going through the same phase and GOd will bless you abundantly. God will make your relationship with Him more true and glorious. Jesus is with you to the end of the age. Come back to Jesus- He is saying to You- come to me all who are labored and heavyu laden I will give you rest. There are many young people who are dead and gone without even knowing that they had cancer in their body. But God extended your father's life for 3 years after that also. Thank God for that. My child the last thing i would like to encourage you is this- Psalm 84:11-For the LORD God is a sun and shield: the LORD will give grace and glory: no good thing will he withhold from them that walk uprightly. You have been made upright and righteous through the blood of Jesus Christ. Cheer up.