Courtney, God loves You very much. I am sorry that your life has not been happy. Please don't leave this world. I am sure that you will make it a better place. God had a reason for you to be here. Why don't you wait around and find out what it is. I'm sorry your grandparents tried to force the Bible on you. Take time and set down and talk to the Lord. He will help you. The Bible is his word that we must live by. I don't understand alot in it. But I believe every word of it. Knowing Jesus is a personel relationship between you and Him.No one else knows your heart like him. I have done so many things wrong in my life. One of my biggest regrets is that I waited until I was 26 to know the Lord. I could have been working for him. I will pray for you. But please,don't leave this world. Maybe you were meant to be the mother of a great president. Maybe you are gonna save someone's life. Maybe you, if you give Jesus a chance, will be a great prayer warrior.

Please Lord,touch this child. Bring happiness to her. Let her see that You love her so much. Give her the desire not to leave this world. Lord, please take all thoughts of suicide away. Lord, please guide her through her life. In this I ask in Your name,Jesus.Amen.