i have been suicidal since i was 8 years old. crazy i know. but i attempted it in april and obviously it didnt work. my grandfather molested me and my mother never cared. i still constantly think about suicide. very close to trying harder this time. i need help. although i have pretty much shunned religion from my life. my grandparents forced the bible down my throat my whole life. this is kinda new. im 16 and want to die. now.