i know we have free will but i also know God has a will for us. I just totally screwed up at least i personally think so. to the point where i do not think i can fix it. i know God can fix if it is his will but i know that people may not listen to him

i know this is confusing but i once again pushed away the one person i love the most and i think it is over for good. i wanted to marry this person and but i truly beleive that it is over and i cannot fix this, i also know that God has reason and a purpose for things so i just pray for forgivness and for his will to be done.

God if it is your will for the woman i love to forgive me and give me another chance let your will be done however if it is too far gone and this is part of your will i give this onto you and just ask for your will to be done in Jesus name i pray amen