i know we have free will but i also know God has a will for us. I just totally screwed up at least i personally think so. to the point where i do not think i can fix it. i know God can fix if it is his will but i know that people may not listen to him

i know this is confusing but i once again pushed away the one person i love the most and i think it is over for good. i wanted to marry this person and but i truly beleive that it is over and i cannot fix this, i also know that God has reason and a purpose for things so i just pray for forgivness and for his will to be done.

God if it is your will for the woman i love to forgive me and give me another chance let your will be done however if it is too far gone and this is part of your will i give this onto you and just ask for your will to be done in Jesus name i pray amen

God do give us free will, but when we go against God's will we have to pay the consequences since most of the our will is sinful. It's like when a parent sees their child doing something they know it will hurt them, they correct them. God tries to warn us but we don't listen then it's up to us to face the consequences. I'm sure God has something better for you, but first he has work to do in you and heal your broken heart too. Get closer to God and leave it all in His hands He knows what is best for all of us, more than we know our self.
Lord give peace to this child of yours and heal his broken heart, may he yield it all to you. I pray in Jesus mighty name, amen.