Yes, the person who posted this above my post is right. I've been there too, but God did had a plan for me and even though it had not materialized at that time yet, today it's so clear. Thanks God I was here to raise my first grandson so my daughter can work. I was here to care for my oldest daughter when she needed me. God healed my marriage forty years ago and saved my husband too. God helped us find a house we could afford to buy in a beautiful area. God has blessed me since then so much and given me so much happiness and joy in my life. Today I can look back and can't believe I was once down in the pit of hell not wanting to live anymore. I'm glad God saved me and helped me when I thought there was no hope, he gave me a reason for living and so much more. Today I look back and I'm so glad I didn't do what I was planning on doing so many years ago. Hang in there God will see you though it all, and someday you too will look back and see God did had a plan for you and many blessings too. May God bless you like he has me and many others out there who trusted him.