I am so sorry to hear of the problems that you have encountered in church. I am almost ashamed to say it, but sometimes church is not the place to meet the people whom God wishes for us to fellowship with. Yes there are wonderful congregations out there, and wonderful people, but you have to remember that satan will use anybody and anything to get us to turn our backs on God, even other christians. If we are not paying attention to our own actions, we can do more harm than good. Some people who call themselves "christians" really are just wolves in sheeps clothing. We must always be aware of our behavior and then people who look to other christians for guidance will be lead in the right direction and that is right to Jesus. I am not sure if this helps at all, but I will pray for you and for the people of your church.
mariarae