My dear friend in the Lord I hear and feel your pain. The Lord tells us in His word that he will never leave or forsake us. The feelings of uselessness and stupidity are lies from the deceiver my friend. He wants to drag us into misery and despair and make us feel worthless. Our Father's eternal word tells us otherwise. We are more unique than even the stars in the heavens themselves. God loves us so much that even when we were in total rebellion against Him he came to redeem and save us from judgement. I know you may think He is far far away from You but He is a whispered prayer away my friend. The world and Satan and even other people will try to define who you are but it's our Heavenly Father who truly sees and loves us my friend. Rest on His word and promises my friend and believe Him. As His word tells us to trust not in our own feelings and understanding but trust and lean on Him. He is the author and finisher of our salvation dear one. The mighty rock that we can stand on in the midst of any storm. Remember we walk by faith not by sight Luthien. Our Father will not fail us if we trust and love Him with all our hearts and minds..Lord Father I pray that You would move in Luthien's life and by Your Spirit draw them into a deep and an abiding walk of faith.

I pray this in Jesus mighty name,

Amen