My youngest daughter decided she wants to live with her dad, Which is all fine and good, I do feel abandoned but the worse thing is that my ex told horrible lies about me that were not true to make sure he got his way...I never even dreamed of lying about anything...He won...I tried to fight it with the truth but people, the judge ,everyone in the court beleived him and thinks I am bad and I am not...my Attorney quit because I have no more money and now I have to go to court by myself. I have PTSD due to the strain of my divorce and also have been very ill with pancreatis problems and kidney stones. I love God but feel like he has abandoned me ...I want to lie down and die I am so tired of fighting and being alone. I want my daughter back ..I want to be healthy...I want to have friends and i want God to love me ...why does he not love me anymore? I am so alonel