I need prayer for strength. I have been batteling with anxiety and fears. I need prayer for the relationship with my boyfriend Pablo. He deceived me and hurt me very much a year ago. I have taken him back but I have not been able to hear because I can not trust him. I need strength, because I feel so week. There are times that I overreact and create a major argument and I alway bring up the past to him. The other night I did it again although I went crazy and started hitting him as if a demon was inside of me. I need help. I asked him for forgiveness and GOD for the way I reacted but it seems that he can not understand me. I did not do it on purpose, I am not sure what got in to me. He is being very cold with me and it seems that he has HATEFUL eyes towards me. It was not me, Why is it that he can not forgive me and understand me when I am the victim and I was the one that was hurt. I am not sure what to do anymore, but I feel hopeless and lost. I am a single mom with my two children and its been difficult to concentrate on them. I need alot of prayer to get rid of this anxiety in me. I pray for peace, love and happiness. I do not want to be betrayed and deceived again. I am so scared and I need to learn to surrender my fears to the LORD. Please help me