I have allowed my depression and yearn for love and acceptance bring me to where today they talk to me . They told me last night that either I show them IMMEDIATLY that I am serious or this is over. I love this job. Its jsut i dont know anyone here as im new to houston. In the end i want to move to where home for me is in california , but i can not get there or anywhere if i dont stop NOW and fight. So today is my day of reckoning. Today is the day my future begins or its the last day I ever had a chance . I dont have any other options. No family really., No where to go . Cali I would have to get a apt for my best friend to move in with me to. Hes a great guy but is not going to support me thats not fair. So either today I fight. or i pack my bags. its been so hard as the devil will throw everything in my way. I havent slept as temptation and stress and fear kept haunting me. I must be strong I must FIght I must chose life