I request prayer because my life was going in a downward spiral fast. After 2years of being unemployed God blessed me with a new car and job 250miles away from my hometown. I feel extremely lonely and do not care for my job too much. I signed a year lease and cannot move. I thought God brought a wonderful man who stays in my hometown into my life. After visiting him he immediately stopped acting the same. He doesnt call which is breaking my heart. I am almost middle aged with no children and I am trying to be okay if God's plan for my life doesnt involve marriage or children. Something I think noone will ever love me or want me. I just dont want hurt so much or feel like I dont have a human friend in this whole world. I dont want to hate my life but there never seems to be anything positive in my life with a purpose. I know prayers work but I do not feel like God's presence is in my life. I believe that he will have mercy on me if I am on one accord with other believers. I am so tires of being depressed and hating my life. I am blessed with more than others in certain ways but I feel dead inside. I think I have reached my limit. I do not know what I will do if things dont work out.
I feel lonely and rejected. I want my relationship to work with Johnathan. Lord I so strongly desire to have a happy loving relationship leading to marriage and kids but if not please take my burning desire away to do so.