Dear Sudhaa, I cannot imgaine your hurts right now but please...do not grieve the Holy Spirit. God loves you always even when you turn your back away from Him. This is how I keep my hope, faith, etc. when I am at the lowest point of my life. I ask myself this question; is my problems in life on earth worth turning away from God? Would I rather be in Hell for eternity or in Heaven with the Lord? I am not trying to scare you but it is a reality; heaven or hell is our choice. Do a research about hell and come back and tell us that you would rather be with satan than with God the Father. Oh, Holy Spirit, I feel your hurt and I ask you to forgive Sudhaa from all these words she has written.