I am a frequent visitor, and I have made 2 prayer requests on here in my life. I want to share my issue, and I hope to hear some encouragement, if possible.

The Lord blessed me when I didn't deserve to be blessed, years ago. I met a woman that needed Christ in her life and I was bringing her to him, I attended church, I had a decent little job, I wrote a poetry book, and I was attending school. I knew of God, but I didn't know of the Lord!! if that makes sense. I had a worldly life, and I can honestly say that I was proud and arrogant. God let it slide for years.

*I wanted to marry my beloved, but I had several women that I fornicated with, and did despicable acts with, because I didn't think I was supposed to "Love her" because I listened to other people, tell me that I needed Beyonce/Alicia Keyes/ Pamela Anderson women.
*I was a poor employee, because I thought that I was "too good"
*My friends were carnally based heathens.
*My poetry book was published, but it focused more on Street/Sexual/secular based images
*I attended church, but I was there in the physical, not so much in the spiritual.

Years went by, and out of the blue, My beloved left me, and moved to New Jersey. I left a job as a counselor, because the counselors and the school covered up abuse toward children, and I reported them.

It was during the sadness of loneliness that I began to look at my life, and realize that God had plans for me that I didn't pay attention to.

My beloved was looking toward me as a representation of Christ, as a christian.. and I did the complete opposite. My life was supposed to be about Christ, but I didn't follow him. I just realized that I messed up.

Well in July, I began to pray to the Lord, and I asked God to simply help me. I didn't know what it meant, just help!

Days went by, and I started buying books on improving my Christian walk, and I came home to my lonely apartment, and fell across my bed, with the TV on something really stupid, Wayne's World or some stupid movie, but I closed my eyes and I heard someone whisper in my ear, " I'LL BRING HER BACK, NOT YOU, YOU CAN'T BRING HER BACK, I CAN. SO DON'T DO ANYTHING. JUST FOLLOW ME, AND OBEY ME"

I opened my eyes immediately, and I started this path, since then.

At first I thought the point of him speaking was to bring her back, but as time went by, I understood, his reasoning was to bring me back to him. She would just be a tool, or a part of his goodness to me. I commited to him..

-No Alcohol
-No Pornography
-No Sex
-Following him and Obeying him in all facets of my life
-I've lost my friends of my former lifestyle, they mock me, and laugh at me, because I love God.
-I've stopped trying to wrestle with God, and I committed to being reconciled with Jesus, and allowing Jesus to work with my beloved.
-I've become a tither, and a sacrificer

He has given me the following interesting openings
-I started paying attention in church and volunteered to work in Youth Ministry, and the director made me the Communication Leader and 2nd in Charge, I didn't ask for this!
-I lost my last job, a week before Christmas, and I have been receiving interest from the job that I had a poor work performance, I had been crying in prayer for help.

I had been thinking for a while, that I needed to use my talent for writing to write a book about this entire ordeal. AFTER, his promises manifest, and I can show people that I have been delivered, and changed. But something in my spirit said, "WHY WAIT?"

And I started to wonder, if I truly have faith in the Lord... I must write this book to glorify him, and reach someone else.. So I sat and wrote in my prayer journal.....

"I'm scared Lord.. I'm afraid to write this book because I don't know if I am doing what you want me to do."

I opened my Bible, and it lead me to Psalm 27:1

The lord is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?

So I knew that I had to write this book...
I questioned God again, how can I write this book without the ending? The promises have not manifested in my life..

I am unemployed, my beloved isn't brought back, yet... Am I supposed to just write the ending as this?

I didn't particularly search for this scripture or google it, or do anything. I honestly flipped through the Bible indiscriminately, and I saw " The Just Live By Faith" and I looked directly down at
Habakkuk 2:2

So I wrote until my hands began to hurt, I have filled 2 Notebooks with Over 8 Chapters of the book that I have written.. But I don't have the final chapter that God told me to wait for.. and I am worried..

He prompted me to write this book, yet I have no ending, and cannot publish this book without it. I have no job to pay for publishing..

His story is so wonderful, yet it would be tragic not to be able to explain:

How God is a God that Restores and gives 2nd chances

My 2nd chance with a possible job
My 2nd chance with a new possible book
my 2nd chance with the church
my 2nd chance with my ex

What would you do? and do you have any encouragement?

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"I would have lost heart, unless I had believed that I would see the Goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. wait on the Lord, be of good courage, and he shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the Lord!" Psalm 27:13-14

Father encourage this guest to follow the path that you have laid out for him. Let him understand that this is a journey based upon learning to trust you completely. Father, let him ask himself this question...why does the book need an ending. Endings come only at the end of life, when we have been perfected to the point of going home to you. Father perhaps this book should and is the beginning of a work in progress just like his (and all of our) life is...and will be the beginning of many books. help this man to discern your will for his life...but also help him to not try to make your work through him finite...you are infinite...and perhaps within these thoughts there is a suggestion of how to bring this book to a close...until you write the next volume through him.

Father...if you mean for this book to be published the money to do so will be provided...perhaps sending the manuscript to Christian book publishers is the place to start...Father lead and guide this man that the work of his hands may be used for your glory. In Jesus precious name...Amen!

The brief writing you have done here makes me smile & inspires me.
I believe that it is likely as you say, your ex could be the tool that you have found The Lord, completely. Perhaps the connect will be your meeting her again, in Heaven when the work is done on earth.
Then you both rejoice together of God's Perfect Will.
You could create a website, post your book minus the last chapter, for download, or even reading online with donations.
Perhaps set up contact availability where you can assist others who are going through challenges similar to yours.
How many times do people ask, HOW does one overcome sin?
Your testimony is huge!
I pray that your healing continues. Your story is powerful in your walk now. You are an overcomer.
Utilize the information highway to get the word out. God's Word, through your own story of healing.
It is obvious you are on fire for JESUS CHRIST.
The Lord asks us to sell what we have & come follow HIM.
You are a bold faithful follower.
I think you are on the right track. Your words are clear, your message strong & powerful.
God Bless you.

T.ryan Wrote:I am a frequent visitor, and I have made 2 prayer requests on here in my life. I want to share my issue, and I hope to hear some encouragement, if possible.

The Lord blessed me when I didn't deserve to be blessed, years ago. I met a woman that needed Christ in her life and I was bringing her to him, I attended church, I had a decent little job, I wrote a poetry book, and I was attending school. I knew of God, but I didn't know of the Lord!! if that makes sense. I had a worldly life, and I can honestly say that I was proud and arrogant. God let it slide for years.

*I wanted to marry my beloved, but I had several women that I fornicated with, and did despicable acts with, because I didn't think I was supposed to "Love her" because I listened to other people, tell me that I needed Beyonce/Alicia Keyes/ Pamela Anderson women.
*I was a poor employee, because I thought that I was "too good"
*My friends were carnally based heathens.
*My poetry book was published, but it focused more on Street/Sexual/secular based images
*I attended church, but I was there in the physical, not so much in the spiritual.

Years went by, and out of the blue, My beloved left me, and moved to New Jersey. I left a job as a counselor, because the counselors and the school covered up abuse toward children, and I reported them.

It was during the sadness of loneliness that I began to look at my life, and realize that God had plans for me that I didn't pay attention to.

My beloved was looking toward me as a representation of Christ, as a christian.. and I did the complete opposite. My life was supposed to be about Christ, but I didn't follow him. I just realized that I messed up.

Well in July, I began to pray to the Lord, and I asked God to simply help me. I didn't know what it meant, just help!

Days went by, and I started buying books on improving my Christian walk, and I came home to my lonely apartment, and fell across my bed, with the TV on something really stupid, Wayne's World or some stupid movie, but I closed my eyes and I heard someone whisper in my ear, " I'LL BRING HER BACK, NOT YOU, YOU CAN'T BRING HER BACK, I CAN. SO DON'T DO ANYTHING. JUST FOLLOW ME, AND OBEY ME"

I opened my eyes immediately, and I started this path, since then.

At first I thought the point of him speaking was to bring her back, but as time went by, I understood, his reasoning was to bring me back to him. She would just be a tool, or a part of his goodness to me. I commited to him..

-No Alcohol
-No Pornography
-No Sex
-Following him and Obeying him in all facets of my life
-I've lost my friends of my former lifestyle, they mock me, and laugh at me, because I love God.
-I've stopped trying to wrestle with God, and I committed to being reconciled with Jesus, and allowing Jesus to work with my beloved.
-I've become a tither, and a sacrificer

He has given me the following interesting openings
-I started paying attention in church and volunteered to work in Youth Ministry, and the director made me the Communication Leader and 2nd in Charge, I didn't ask for this!
-I lost my last job, a week before Christmas, and I have been receiving interest from the job that I had a poor work performance, I had been crying in prayer for help.

I had been thinking for a while, that I needed to use my talent for writing to write a book about this entire ordeal. AFTER, his promises manifest, and I can show people that I have been delivered, and changed. But something in my spirit said, "WHY WAIT?"

And I started to wonder, if I truly have faith in the Lord... I must write this book to glorify him, and reach someone else.. So I sat and wrote in my prayer journal.....

"I'm scared Lord.. I'm afraid to write this book because I don't know if I am doing what you want me to do."

I opened my Bible, and it lead me to Psalm 27:1

The lord is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?

So I knew that I had to write this book...
I questioned God again, how can I write this book without the ending? The promises have not manifested in my life..

I am unemployed, my beloved isn't brought back, yet... Am I supposed to just write the ending as this?

I didn't particularly search for this scripture or google it, or do anything. I honestly flipped through the Bible indiscriminately, and I saw " The Just Live By Faith" and I looked directly down at
Habakkuk 2:2

So I wrote until my hands began to hurt, I have filled 2 Notebooks with Over 8 Chapters of the book that I have written.. But I don't have the final chapter that God told me to wait for.. and I am worried..

He prompted me to write this book, yet I have no ending, and cannot publish this book without it. I have no job to pay for publishing..

His story is so wonderful, yet it would be tragic not to be able to explain:

How God is a God that Restores and gives 2nd chances

My 2nd chance with a possible job
My 2nd chance with a new possible book
my 2nd chance with the church
my 2nd chance with my ex

What would you do? and do you have any encouragement?

i know its sound simple but i seek his face like never before. He IS always a on time God. He did not bring you this far to leave you. keep the faith. your in my prayers.

T.ryan,

this, what you heard from The Lord, I believe is POWERFUL:

I'LL BRING HER BACK, NOT YOU, YOU CAN'T BRING HER BACK, I CAN. SO DON'T DO ANYTHING. JUST FOLLOW ME, AND OBEY ME"

Adoring1 suggests perhaps the ending is, the end where you meet The Lord, so maybe there needs not be a last chapter.
maybe Heaven is the last chapter & it is eternal.

I feel that you have a heart for Christ from what you write.
Keep writing.
It's hard to walk In the world when we have had glimpses of Heaven.
Much is loosed on earth, but our feet are firmly planted headed HOME.

T.ryan Wrote:I am a frequent visitor, and I have made 2 prayer requests on here in my life. I want to share my issue, and I hope to hear some encouragement, if possible.

The Lord blessed me when I didn't deserve to be blessed, years ago. I met a woman that needed Christ in her life and I was bringing her to him, I attended church, I had a decent little job, I wrote a poetry book, and I was attending school. I knew of God, but I didn't know of the Lord!! if that makes sense. I had a worldly life, and I can honestly say that I was proud and arrogant. God let it slide for years.

*I wanted to marry my beloved, but I had several women that I fornicated with, and did despicable acts with, because I didn't think I was supposed to "Love her" because I listened to other people, tell me that I needed Beyonce/Alicia Keyes/ Pamela Anderson women.
*I was a poor employee, because I thought that I was "too good"
*My friends were carnally based heathens.
*My poetry book was published, but it focused more on Street/Sexual/secular based images
*I attended church, but I was there in the physical, not so much in the spiritual.

Years went by, and out of the blue, My beloved left me, and moved to New Jersey. I left a job as a counselor, because the counselors and the school covered up abuse toward children, and I reported them.

It was during the sadness of loneliness that I began to look at my life, and realize that God had plans for me that I didn't pay attention to.

My beloved was looking toward me as a representation of Christ, as a christian.. and I did the complete opposite. My life was supposed to be about Christ, but I didn't follow him. I just realized that I messed up.

Well in July, I began to pray to the Lord, and I asked God to simply help me. I didn't know what it meant, just help!

Days went by, and I started buying books on improving my Christian walk, and I came home to my lonely apartment, and fell across my bed, with the TV on something really stupid, Wayne's World or some stupid movie, but I closed my eyes and I heard someone whisper in my ear, " I'LL BRING HER BACK, NOT YOU, YOU CAN'T BRING HER BACK, I CAN. SO DON'T DO ANYTHING. JUST FOLLOW ME, AND OBEY ME"

I opened my eyes immediately, and I started this path, since then.

At first I thought the point of him speaking was to bring her back, but as time went by, I understood, his reasoning was to bring me back to him. She would just be a tool, or a part of his goodness to me. I commited to him..

-No Alcohol
-No Pornography
-No Sex
-Following him and Obeying him in all facets of my life
-I've lost my friends of my former lifestyle, they mock me, and laugh at me, because I love God.
-I've stopped trying to wrestle with God, and I committed to being reconciled with Jesus, and allowing Jesus to work with my beloved.
-I've become a tither, and a sacrificer

He has given me the following interesting openings
-I started paying attention in church and volunteered to work in Youth Ministry, and the director made me the Communication Leader and 2nd in Charge, I didn't ask for this!
-I lost my last job, a week before Christmas, and I have been receiving interest from the job that I had a poor work performance, I had been crying in prayer for help.

I had been thinking for a while, that I needed to use my talent for writing to write a book about this entire ordeal. AFTER, his promises manifest, and I can show people that I have been delivered, and changed. But something in my spirit said, "WHY WAIT?"

And I started to wonder, if I truly have faith in the Lord... I must write this book to glorify him, and reach someone else.. So I sat and wrote in my prayer journal.....

"I'm scared Lord.. I'm afraid to write this book because I don't know if I am doing what you want me to do."

I opened my Bible, and it lead me to Psalm 27:1

The lord is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?

So I knew that I had to write this book...
I questioned God again, how can I write this book without the ending? The promises have not manifested in my life..

I am unemployed, my beloved isn't brought back, yet... Am I supposed to just write the ending as this?

I didn't particularly search for this scripture or google it, or do anything. I honestly flipped through the Bible indiscriminately, and I saw " The Just Live By Faith" and I looked directly down at
Habakkuk 2:2

So I wrote until my hands began to hurt, I have filled 2 Notebooks with Over 8 Chapters of the book that I have written.. But I don't have the final chapter that God told me to wait for.. and I am worried..

He prompted me to write this book, yet I have no ending, and cannot publish this book without it. I have no job to pay for publishing..

His story is so wonderful, yet it would be tragic not to be able to explain:

How God is a God that Restores and gives 2nd chances

My 2nd chance with a possible job
My 2nd chance with a new possible book
my 2nd chance with the church
my 2nd chance with my ex

What would you do? and do you have any encouragement?

It would be so much easier if the manifestation was to be in the Heavens, I wouldn't have to fight my human nature of doubt. I could rest in this, and know that it is well.

But when I asked God to guide me to what I should do, I was prompted to this scripture:

2And the LORD answered me, and said, Write the vision, and make it plain upon tables, that he may run that readeth it.

3For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry.

I know that you may not believe me, but I humbly asked God for guidance. I didn't want to publish a book where I could not present it to people with an answer. I would only be publishing a book that made the Lord seem like a liar. I CAN'T DO THAT. I could have just been content to write in my little prayer journal.

The book has to be published, because According to the scripture, it has to be PLAIN FOR PEOPLE TO READ IT. HIS VISION IS SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN, HIS REVELATION HAS TO COME TO PASS. I'm no biblical scholar. I'm not trained in this, I am just a man that has been through a lot, and I have many adversaries that laugh when I say that I heard the Lord speak to me, and rescue me. I am in a position that I am forced to wait for God to release the final chapter of this book.

It's like I am putting God's reputation on the line. I finished writing on Monday December 20th 2010. But I won't publish anything until God tells me to.

Godschild9108 Wrote:i know its sound simple but i seek his face like never before. He IS always a on time God. He did not bring you this far to leave you. keep the faith. your in my prayers.

THank you.

adoring1 Wrote:Father encourage this guest to follow the path that you have laid out for him. Let him understand that this is a journey based upon learning to trust you completely. Father, let him ask himself this question...why does the book need an ending. Endings come only at the end of life, when we have been perfected to the point of going home to you. Father perhaps this book should and is the beginning of a work in progress just like his (and all of our) life is...and will be the beginning of many books. help this man to discern your will for his life...but also help him to not try to make your work through him finite...you are infinite...and perhaps within these thoughts there is a suggestion of how to bring this book to a close...until you write the next volume through him.

Father...if you mean for this book to be published the money to do so will be provided...perhaps sending the manuscript to Christian book publishers is the place to start...Father lead and guide this man that the work of his hands may be used for your glory. In Jesus precious name...Amen!

I thank you for your advice. This is only the beginning. After the book is published, because it will get published, I know that my Sheperd will lead me to the next venture!

T.ryan, you come here asking for comments & advice.
Can you clarify what it is you are wanting.
It comes across as if you already know what to do.
May God Lead you.

T.ryan Wrote:It would be so much easier if the manifestation was to be in the Heavens, I wouldn't have to fight my human nature of doubt. I could rest in this, and know that it is well.

But when I asked God to guide me to what I should do, I was prompted to this scripture:

2And the LORD answered me, and said, Write the vision, and make it plain upon tables, that he may run that readeth it.

3For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry.

I know that you may not believe me, but I humbly asked God for guidance. I didn't want to publish a book where I could not present it to people with an answer. I would only be publishing a book that made the Lord seem like a liar. I CAN'T DO THAT. I could have just been content to write in my little prayer journal.

The book has to be published, because According to the scripture, it has to be PLAIN FOR PEOPLE TO READ IT. HIS VISION IS SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN, HIS REVELATION HAS TO COME TO PASS. I'm no biblical scholar. I'm not trained in this, I am just a man that has been through a lot, and I have many adversaries that laugh when I say that I heard the Lord speak to me, and rescue me. I am in a position that I am forced to wait for God to release the final chapter of this book.

It's like I am putting God's reputation on the line. I finished writing on Monday December 20th 2010. But I won't publish anything until God tells me to.

Guest Wrote:T.ryan, you come here asking for comments & advice.
Can you clarify what it is you are wanting.
It comes across as if you already know what to do.
May God Lead you.

T.ryan Wrote:It would be so much easier if the manifestation was to be in the Heavens, I wouldn't have to fight my human nature of doubt. I could rest in this, and know that it is well.

But when I asked God to guide me to what I should do, I was prompted to this scripture:

2And the LORD answered me, and said, Write the vision, and make it plain upon tables, that he may run that readeth it.

3For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry.

I know that you may not believe me, but I humbly asked God for guidance. I didn't want to publish a book where I could not present it to people with an answer. I would only be publishing a book that made the Lord seem like a liar. I CAN'T DO THAT. I could have just been content to write in my little prayer journal.

The book has to be published, because According to the scripture, it has to be PLAIN FOR PEOPLE TO READ IT. HIS VISION IS SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN, HIS REVELATION HAS TO COME TO PASS. I'm no biblical scholar. I'm not trained in this, I am just a man that has been through a lot, and I have many adversaries that laugh when I say that I heard the Lord speak to me, and rescue me. I am in a position that I am forced to wait for God to release the final chapter of this book.

It's like I am putting God's reputation on the line. I finished writing on Monday December 20th 2010. But I won't publish anything until God tells me to.

Maybe you are right. I know what I have to do. Wait on the Lord. Just pray that I do not lose heart. Please.