For God's Will & GOoDness in our lives this ThanksGiving Day, be it ALL for HIS GLORY, that HE OPEN our eyes so we see HIS DESIRES, Protect us & Guide us Lord Jesus. Let, The Fruits of The Holy Spirit, Reign.

Mel-S Wrote:I just want to pop by here before I get ready to go to my Grandmother's to say Happy Thanksgiving to all of you. Have fun and be blessed with being with your family and friends. Please continue to keep me in your prayers and all of the things that I have posted thus far. Happy Thanksgiving once more. Amen.

~Mel-S

Well, another Thanksgiving has come and gone. Great to see my family and cousins again. Had a great time.

Now I am in my bed, in deep thought... and I know it's wrong to be sad during the holidays, but I am a little sad at the moment. One, I do not have anything else to do for the rest of the week, so I will be stuck at home with nothing to do except when something comes up. I really want to see my (ex)boyfriend while he is here in MD. ...He will be here until Monday when he goes back to NC, which doesn't leave me much time to see him at all. I do not know if he's free any day during this week since there are a lot of friends and family who want to see him, me included... and I really want to see him... simply because he is STILL the man I love and want to marry and I believe that he will be my husband... and I haven't seen him in 8 long months... it really hurts to be away from him for so long, especially right now when he is so close... I'm praying that I do get to see him before Monday, hopefully tomorrow which will be great. I miss him so much... and I want to spend time with him too, you know? I have no car nor a way to get to a train station since my mom works tomorrow... and I hope he does want to visit me... because he doesn't know if he is able to because his family might have other plans or he already had plans... but I'm desperately praying that I am in those plans. I miss him... and I love him... and I really want to see him before he goes back to NC on Monday. I'm glad he came here safe and sound and I'm glad he had a great Thanksgiving with his family too... I wish I could have been there too, just to see him... or for both of our families to unite for one big dinner... which I really pray to happen in the future once he becomes my husband.

Please pray for this very small request of mine... for me to get the chance to see him before Monday... for him to get the chance to visit me... or for me to get a chance to visit him... and spend time with him while he's home... it hurts more now that he's so close... and I want to just hug him and hold him close to me. I really love him... and I trust in God for Him to reunite us again... If anyone can reunite a relationship, it's God, because nothing is impossible for Him... so I must not say to myself that it's impossible for us to be together again nor I cannot say that this will not happen... because when it comes to love, especially to the people I love, it's 100% unconditional. And my (ex)boyfriend is no different.

Please pray for that one simple request... It would really mean a lot to me. And have a good rest of the holiday.

~Mel-S

I cannot sleep... I've been up since 5am... and it's not even a school day. I just couldn't stop thinking about him... my love... my (ex)boyfriend... Goodness, for him to be so close... he's right there... and I'm right here...

I had a long... long talk with God earlier... my parents are asleep... I'm the only one awake right now... I've walked around my room... peeked inside my parents room... they are sleeping soundly... I walked to the kitchen window... looked out and up at the dark and cloudy morning sky... then walked to the living room... and sat down on the couch... and had a long 1 hour talk with God about how much I really really want this unity... this restoration to happen... I cried... I wept... and after that long talk and confessions and the like... I'm really hoping that God will understand me and He heard me... and I hope... he can give me and my (ex)boyfriend one more chance... and let that chance go on forever into marriage... I still remember those dreams oh so well. and I want them to happen too... only him... and no one else...

I really don't know what else to say here... I already had my long talk with God about my heart's desires... really trusting in Him to grant them... this one being the most prominent one I have... Please keep me in your prayers... I only slept for 4 hours... and I feel like I can't sleep anymore. And guys thank you for still being there for me... even though I'm working your nerves a little posting over and over again in a day... Please keep praying. Really need it right now...

~Mel-S

Mel-S Wrote:I cannot sleep... I've been up since 5am... and it's not even a school day. I just couldn't stop thinking about him... my love... my (ex)boyfriend... Goodness, for him to be so close... he's right there... and I'm right here...

I had a long... long talk with God earlier... my parents are asleep... I'm the only one awake right now... I've walked around my room... peeked inside my parents room... they are sleeping soundly... I walked to the kitchen window... looked out and up at the dark and cloudy morning sky... then walked to the living room... and sat down on the couch... and had a long 1 hour talk with God about how much I really really want this unity... this restoration to happen... I cried... I wept... and after that long talk and confessions and the like... I'm really hoping that God will understand me and He heard me... and I hope... he can give me and my (ex)boyfriend one more chance... and let that chance go on forever into marriage... I still remember those dreams oh so well. and I want them to happen too... only him... and no one else...

I really don't know what else to say here... I already had my long talk with God about my heart's desires... really trusting in Him to grant them... this one being the most prominent one I have... Please keep me in your prayers... I only slept for 4 hours... and I feel like I can't sleep anymore. And guys thank you for still being there for me... even though I'm working your nerves a little posting over and over again in a day... Please keep praying. Really need it right now...

~Mel-S

Mel,

Please do not take this wrong, I do not want to attack you or belittle you in any way, but I have to ask this. Are you sure this is the man you want to be with or is it that you have so much invested in him as far as your dreams and desires? I think you are a lot like me in that you are very ambitious, very strong willed, and you go after what you want in life. Unfortunately, you cannot do that with love (I know, because I already tried). I'm not trying to say that your ex isn't the one, but I think that you should think things over--what do you really want? The Lord always hears our prayers and He always answers them--remember that as you pray this week. I just want you to remember that the Lord may want to answer differently than you desire. If for some reason things do not work out--please do not give up on love. You, like me, are so young and the Lord has plenty of time to send the person He wants you to be with--and that person will be perfect in every way. I don't think you would go through the ups and downs that you do now, nor would you be constantly worried about being together. I only say this because I have been exactly where you are now--for me, I had to admit that the person I loved was not the one. I don't know if that is the case for you, but please consider that Mel. The Lord obviously doesn't want you to be alone--don't shut Him out simply for this request, because I think both of us know what you really want: the man God wants for you, who will care for you and LOVE you the way you need to be.

I just ask you to consider those things. I think you have gone in the right direction by seeking the Lord on the matter, but I think you are trusting more in your dreams than in the Lord to make those dreams a reality. Don't focus so much on your ex--he may or may not be the one (and if he isn't the one, allow the Lord to bring the one who IS). I just don't want you to give up hope if things don't work out your way. As someone wise once told me when I was in a similar situation, I think that you may be too involved with your ex. If it is meant to be, you really won't have to work at it to get back together. It'll just happen--the Lord will allow it to be. However, if not, allow Him to bring you the right person. You are a woman full of love and potential. Don't waste it on someone who doesn't love you (if that is the case).

I hope that you haven't been offended. I sincerely say these things not to judge but to advise you and help you. I don't want to do you any harm.

Dear Lord,

Please, if it be Your will Father, allow Mel to see her ex before Monday and for her to get to spend time with him. I pray that through that visit You would reveal Your will in the situation--if You should allow them to see one another again. I ask that You would soften Mel's heart to hear Your instructions and to know clearly whether or not she should wait on this young man (if he is truly the one or not). I ask that whatever the answer may be that You would soften her heart to know that You do have someone in mind for her and that You would not have her to be alone. I ask that she would grow closer to You and find Your will for her life.

Please bring her the person she is meant to be with--bring her the man You want for her and Lord I beg of You, please allow her heart and eyes to be open so that she may see that it is Your will. Show her what she must do now in this situation.

I thank You for all these things in Christ's name I pray. Amen.

May you find your way, Mel and may you find what the Lord has in store for you.

Lost Love

Guest Wrote:

Mel-S Wrote:I cannot sleep... I've been up since 5am... and it's not even a school day. I just couldn't stop thinking about him... my love... my (ex)boyfriend... Goodness, for him to be so close... he's right there... and I'm right here...

I had a long... long talk with God earlier... my parents are asleep... I'm the only one awake right now... I've walked around my room... peeked inside my parents room... they are sleeping soundly... I walked to the kitchen window... looked out and up at the dark and cloudy morning sky... then walked to the living room... and sat down on the couch... and had a long 1 hour talk with God about how much I really really want this unity... this restoration to happen... I cried... I wept... and after that long talk and confessions and the like... I'm really hoping that God will understand me and He heard me... and I hope... he can give me and my (ex)boyfriend one more chance... and let that chance go on forever into marriage... I still remember those dreams oh so well. and I want them to happen too... only him... and no one else...

I really don't know what else to say here... I already had my long talk with God about my heart's desires... really trusting in Him to grant them... this one being the most prominent one I have... Please keep me in your prayers... I only slept for 4 hours... and I feel like I can't sleep anymore. And guys thank you for still being there for me... even though I'm working your nerves a little posting over and over again in a day... Please keep praying. Really need it right now...

~Mel-S

Mel,

Please do not take this wrong, I do not want to attack you or belittle you in any way, but I have to ask this. Are you sure this is the man you want to be with or is it that you have so much invested in him as far as your dreams and desires? I think you are a lot like me in that you are very ambitious, very strong willed, and you go after what you want in life. Unfortunately, you cannot do that with love (I know, because I already tried). I'm not trying to say that your ex isn't the one, but I think that you should think things over--what do you really want? The Lord always hears our prayers and He always answers them--remember that as you pray this week. I just want you to remember that the Lord may want to answer differently than you desire. If for some reason things do not work out--please do not give up on love. You, like me, are so young and the Lord has plenty of time to send the person He wants you to be with--and that person will be perfect in every way. I don't think you would go through the ups and downs that you do now, nor would you be constantly worried about being together. I only say this because I have been exactly where you are now--for me, I had to admit that the person I loved was not the one. I don't know if that is the case for you, but please consider that Mel. The Lord obviously doesn't want you to be alone--don't shut Him out simply for this request, because I think both of us know what you really want: the man God wants for you, who will care for you and LOVE you the way you need to be.

I just ask you to consider those things. I think you have gone in the right direction by seeking the Lord on the matter, but I think you are trusting more in your dreams than in the Lord to make those dreams a reality. Don't focus so much on your ex--he may or may not be the one (and if he isn't the one, allow the Lord to bring the one who IS). I just don't want you to give up hope if things don't work out your way. As someone wise once told me when I was in a similar situation, I think that you may be too involved with your ex. If it is meant to be, you really won't have to work at it to get back together. It'll just happen--the Lord will allow it to be. However, if not, allow Him to bring you the right person. You are a woman full of love and potential. Don't waste it on someone who doesn't love you (if that is the case).

I hope that you haven't been offended. I sincerely say these things not to judge but to advise you and help you. I don't want to do you any harm.

Dear Lord,

Please, if it be Your will Father, allow Mel to see her ex before Monday and for her to get to spend time with him. I pray that through that visit You would reveal Your will in the situation--if You should allow them to see one another again. I ask that You would soften Mel's heart to hear Your instructions and to know clearly whether or not she should wait on this young man (if he is truly the one or not). I ask that whatever the answer may be that You would soften her heart to know that You do have someone in mind for her and that You would not have her to be alone. I ask that she would grow closer to You and find Your will for her life.

Please bring her the person she is meant to be with--bring her the man You want for her and Lord I beg of You, please allow her heart and eyes to be open so that she may see that it is Your will. Show her what she must do now in this situation.

I thank You for all these things in Christ's name I pray. Amen.

May you find your way, Mel and may you find what the Lord has in store for you.

Lost Love

Lost Love,

This is the man I truly want to be with. This is what I want... I wouldn't be praying for 8+ months straight and not want this. Otherwise I would have given up a long time ago. Apparently, you have to know that this is what I desire. This is the man I want to marry.

Please do not take this the wrong way either, as I haven't taken yours wrongly either, but I will give up on love "if" things don't work out. What's the point of having to love a person you don't even want, even if he is the one God had for me. I only want the man I am praying for, no one else. I've thought about so many things, and yet it all points the same way: I only want him, otherwise I do not want anyone else. Plain as simple.

Even though you are/have went through the same as I have, your decision and mine are 100% different.

This is what I want... this is truly what I want to have. Nothing's changed in that matter, nor I believe it will never be changed, because it's what in my heart... And I am going to give up on love forever because "if" things don't work out, what's the point of starting over with a new guy you don't even know... or a new guy you never even wanted to have? I do not want a new partner... I want the one that I want to be my partner... I will wait on him for the rest of my life, 24/7 if that is what it'll take for everyone (including yourself, please again do not take this the wrong way) to figure out this is what I want to have in my life. They say the most persistent prayers are the ones that He will grant and answer. Seems like it has happened to so many people that i believe it will work for me too. I cannot explain how many people have downed on me for praying for this for 8+ months... they called me crazy... they just want me to give up... for something I do not want. And what I don't want is someone new. I rather be single forever than not have him as my lover forever. That's what I believe. And "if" he isn't the one, then you, I, and everyone else can understand that I will not find another person, nor do I want another person. I will be alone forever, and I would want no other man to try to approach me as to being "the one God has for me" because I believe my (ex)boyfriend is the one He has for me, plain as simple. ...It's really hard to explain this in a less blunt matter, but it is what it is for me. This is what I want to happen...

I'm sorry if I sound completely stubborn and brash if I was, but this is true and I'm sticking to this. I rather be single for the rest of my life than to not have him as my lover forever... That's all I feel I can say right now... Sorry. But thanks though for your words...

~Mel-S

Lord... please have a way for me to see my (ex)boyfriend before he goes back to his base on Monday... today would have been a perfect day to see him... but my mom had to work all day so I do not have any transportation. And he is not online on Facebook either... so I do not know how I can talk to him and have him to come visit me or for me to visit him... I have to work tomorrow and Sunday (they called me in and scheduled me to work those days) so it's getting harder and harder to even get a chance to see him... I just want God to make a way for me to see him before Monday... I haven't seen him in 8 months... and I love him so much... and still want to be with him and be his girlfriend... I don't know how I can see him and I really want to... if there was a way to see him, I'd be on the next thing to whereever I'll be able to visit him. With no transportation or communication, what can I do... more like... what can God do to have us see each other...? Please God... you know me too well in this situation right now... please have me to see him before Monday before it's too late... He's right there within my reach... and I'm right here between a rock and a hard place. Please do not withhold this visit from me because it hurts me inside... Because who knows when he'll be back to MD again. Another 8 months? I'm really anxious to see him Lord... please make a way quickly... have him talk to me so we can set up a visit time/day before Monday, today included. ...Time is running out... and each moment is hurting me more, knowing he's within my reach... please Lord, make a way before it's too late... Amen.

Lord, Your Will Be Done in Mel's life.
Thank You Lord God that she has work, a family that cares about her & she them, that she knows YOU.
We give YOU THANKS FOR ALL YOU Give us Lord & we continue wait patiently on Your Will in our lives.

Mel-S Wrote:Lord... please have a way for me to see my (ex)boyfriend before he goes back to his base on Monday... today would have been a perfect day to see him... but my mom had to work all day so I do not have any transportation. And he is not online on Facebook either... so I do not know how I can talk to him and have him to come visit me or for me to visit him... I have to work tomorrow and Sunday (they called me in and scheduled me to work those days) so it's getting harder and harder to even get a chance to see him... I just want God to make a way for me to see him before Monday... I haven't seen him in 8 months... and I love him so much... and still want to be with him and be his girlfriend... I don't know how I can see him and I really want to... if there was a way to see him, I'd be on the next thing to whereever I'll be able to visit him. With no transportation or communication, what can I do... more like... what can God do to have us see each other...? Please God... you know me too well in this situation right now... please have me to see him before Monday before it's too late... He's right there within my reach... and I'm right here between a rock and a hard place. Please do not withhold this visit from me because it hurts me inside... Because who knows when he'll be back to MD again. Another 8 months? I'm really anxious to see him Lord... please make a way quickly... have him talk to me so we can set up a visit time/day before Monday, today included. ...Time is running out... and each moment is hurting me more, knowing he's within my reach... please Lord, make a way before it's too late... Amen.

Father, if it be in your will for Mel to see this young man this weekend before Monday, I ask that you grant her this prayer. If it is not, I pray that you would help her to accept it. In Jesus name...Amen!

One day gone, 2 more to go... today would have been perfect since I was stuck at home with nothing to do... with tomorrow and Sunday of me going to work... I don't know if I can see him... I really want to see him, I mean it's been 8 months and God knows how much I really want to see him... Does God really not want me to see him, even it's for a day? It's hurting me inside and it'll be God knows when he'll be back to MD again... please Lord... have me see him again... to talk to him and spend time with him... He's within my reach and even I would do anything just to see him... because I love him so unconditionally that I call him my forever lover even when we are apart for now. Please have him make a way for me to see him, Lord... with all of the other prayers you know that I pray so often... please grant this prayer... this year is almost over... and it's been one of the worst I've ever had... if not, thee worse. Amen.

Another day gone... tomorrow afternoon is the last day and final chance to be able to see him before he goes back to North Carolina at his base... I couldn't see him today because mom had to be at work early today and I had no other transportation for the visit. Right now I'm on Facebook trying to contact him. I'll be able to ask him if he can see me tomorrow afternoon since he leaves on Monday. I miss him even though he's right here at home! It hurts and it's very hard. Please pray for this simple request... to have him to see me tomorrow afternoon. Even though he might come back by Christmas, personally I cannot wait that long since he's within my reach... I wish I knew how to drive... and I wish I had my cell phone to text him, but I have no cell service nor money to pay the bill. I'm 3 months behind ($285 and some change to be exact...). I love him so much and I can't even see him if I had the chance to?! God, please... please don't withhold this visit from me... this means a lot to me... You know I love this man... and You know that I feel we are meant to be and to be married in the near future... If it wasn't meant to be, we shouldn't have met (common sense, right?). And I really want to see him... I haven't seen him in 8+ months, Lord. 8+ months... You know how hard it is to not see him for 8+ months and You know it's even harder when he's here at home for a few days! Lord please... I really want to see him... and You know I will never give up on that man for as long as I live. I am holding myself for this man and this man only. I shall not love another man. I will be single forever if that's what it takes to have him back in my life and still pray for it.

Please... let me see him tomorrow afternoon... let me have a response to when I can... it's tearing me apart... and my faith and trust is struggling very very badly... Please... do not withhold this visit from me... please hear me... In Jesus' name... please grant this... Amen.