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RE: Hurt... pain... agony... and suicidal thoughts - Guest - 01-12-2011 10:13 AM
what is it exactly you want from us?
you keep coming here & saying, Help, pray for me.
what do you want?
exactly.
you're talking suicide mel & that is serious & really you should get to a mental health professional & some help asap.
talking suicide is not a joke.
we are not making fun of you but you come here & want help & talk of suicide.
YOU need to get some help right where you are, immediately.
Pick up the phone & call a crisis line. Get into counseling.
we can pray for you here, but you have to do the work from your end & with GOD.
if you are suicidal, call this # 1800-SUICIDE
if you are afraid that they will trace the call? then hit the buttons on your phone they won't see your # but talk to someone on the phone or inperson & do so until this time of crisis in your life subsides.
your mother is probably very concerned about you & is overwhelmed I'm sure with all of what is going on in your lives.
As to school, if it's that difficult commit to staying out of college after this semester until you reground yourself.
I pray that God Gives you the courage to pick up the phone & get some help. You are also so prideful right now that you won't get the help you are needing & this is also not of GOD.
We are saying these things out of love, wisdom, having our own share of things to overcome in life. We all face trials in life, that's part of living.
Mel-S Wrote:Things are not working out for me at all... I appreciate the comments, prayers, etc... but seriously, as soon as I posted, something else had to ruin my day. My mom yelling at me. Saying if something were to happen to both of us (meaning her and my dad) I'm going to end up getting checked into an institution because I cannot take care of myself or do anything for myself. She says all she does is serve me food (since I cannot cook) and do everything and I don't do a thing for myself. I'm 'messing up in school' but the term JUST started and this situations have gotten me to stay home and she told me herself I had to stay home so HOW am I messing up in school when classes JUST started back and SHE told ME to stay home because of the inclement weather and dad being in the hospital?! HOW AM I MESSING UP IN SCHOOL? Tell me! My mom is bringing my already low spirit lower. As my day (as painful as it is to wake up to it) is already messing up. My mom told me my dad is in a lot of pain in the hospital because of the broken hand, broken opposite arm, and his recent kidney infection on top of his heart problems. NOW can you tell me why my life isn't worthless? How can I be afraid of death when I want to kill myself? I'm just afraid where I will end up if I do it, which is why I haven't done it! I'm afraid of life in general. I do not like life as it is right now. I cannot take charge of my own life, because I have no where to go at this point... no where at all. I'm still stuck at home, with my mom mad, angry, worried, etc. about my dad in the hospital and ME in this state. Mom thinks I do not care for her or my father anymore just because I went on here to post my prayers/comments before I could have the chance to say good morning to her. And now I'm getting yelled at and getting these bad comments from her. My life is hell, tell me again why it's not worth killing myself over... I'm lost entirely... Lord... what can You do to turn things around... i mean right this second? The world is falling at my feet... and I'm afraid I may up falling with it... Help...
~Mel-S
RE: Hurt... pain... agony... and suicidal thoughts - Mel-S - 01-12-2011 02:34 PM
Remember when I said I have already does this before and it doesn't work out for me? It doesn't. I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts since I was 13, possibly earlier... and only one person (my cousin who is a little younger than I am, and she also have been contemplating suicide since she was 9) knows about my suicidal thoughts as of late. I told my mom and dad once that if suicide wasn't wrong, I'd done it already... so they know how I feel at this point... my dad too was the same way... And I know about my little cousin's situations as well. Like her, it doesn't seem to work for her. I've been to therapy, counselors, etc... they always come back. I thank for the suicide hotline, but I have to decline since I did call it before, been to therapy and the whole works. Doesn't work for me, I'm afraid. I know suicide isn't a joke... but I've lost loved ones due to suicide... they too were saved. They too couldn't stand the turmoil of their lives... Some say they are in Heaven... some say they are in Hell despite being saved... They (my parents) does not know I've been suicidal since I was 13, yet they know I would have done it if it weren't wrong (so people say)... They think I don't think highly of suicide, but in reality I do... and I definitely do not want to put more stress or trouble that my parents are already in by going back to therapy for suicide. No. I will not do that... nor does it work, but I don't want to do that for the sake of my family. My prayers have been unanswered for almost a full year now... most of other ones have been unanswered for YEARS. My mom's smoking: worsened. My dad's health problems that's been there since 2004: worsened. I do not know what to do... I've called God over and over for help... I've tried listening for Him... I feel He hasn't answered me... or even reached to me for me reaching to Him... :( I know... I'm too young for this... but... life is harder than one might think at least for me, if you knew what has been going on from childhood to now... I would have killed myself years ago... still had those thoughts ever since... all I wanted was for my dreams to come true... all of them... since the age of 9, all I did was dream big... and years go by only to get disappointed slowly but surely... all I want are my desires to be fulfilled... for my family to be happy and healthy... for my exboyfriend and I to reunite and for him to be saved... many think they're (ex and his new girl) going to break up soon enough, just like he and I did and want me to just keep a sharp eye out for him when it does. Like my mom told me, she hopes his new girl (my former best friend) breaks his heart so he can feel the pain and see what he has missed and what goes around comes around... mom is a Christian, but I feel the same way. I'm hoping she does break with him soon. But I digress. My entire life has been turmoil-ridden and broken... more than ever. I've been reaching to God all this time... and I see or feel or hear anything... open minded and all... nothing... Please God... I need a miracle right now before I may end up hurting myself... you prayer warriors are worried about me, and I'm sorry if I have been... but life is too tough for me right now... I hope I don't end up killing myself... even though it does feel right at the moment... God Bless.
~Mel-S
RE: Hurt... pain... agony... and suicidal thoughts - Guest - 01-12-2011 04:28 PM
If I knew how to report you posting here & talking about suicide I would because I find it upsetting.
I would ask that the site owner make a report as it seems you are serious & it needs to be reported.
Mel-S Wrote:Remember when I said I have already does this before and it doesn't work out for me? It doesn't. I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts since I was 13, possibly earlier... and only one person (my cousin who is a little younger than I am, and she also have been contemplating suicide since she was 9) knows about my suicidal thoughts as of late. I told my mom and dad once that if suicide wasn't wrong, I'd done it already... so they know how I feel at this point... my dad too was the same way... And I know about my little cousin's situations as well. Like her, it doesn't seem to work for her. I've been to therapy, counselors, etc... they always come back. I thank for the suicide hotline, but I have to decline since I did call it before, been to therapy and the whole works. Doesn't work for me, I'm afraid. I know suicide isn't a joke... but I've lost loved ones due to suicide... they too were saved. They too couldn't stand the turmoil of their lives... Some say they are in Heaven... some say they are in Hell despite being saved... They (my parents) does not know I've been suicidal since I was 13, yet they know I would have done it if it weren't wrong (so people say)... They think I don't think highly of suicide, but in reality I do... and I definitely do not want to put more stress or trouble that my parents are already in by going back to therapy for suicide. No. I will not do that... nor does it work, but I don't want to do that for the sake of my family. My prayers have been unanswered for almost a full year now... most of other ones have been unanswered for YEARS. My mom's smoking: worsened. My dad's health problems that's been there since 2004: worsened. I do not know what to do... I've called God over and over for help... I've tried listening for Him... I feel He hasn't answered me... or even reached to me for me reaching to Him... :( I know... I'm too young for this... but... life is harder than one might think at least for me, if you knew what has been going on from childhood to now... I would have killed myself years ago... still had those thoughts ever since... all I wanted was for my dreams to come true... all of them... since the age of 9, all I did was dream big... and years go by only to get disappointed slowly but surely... all I want are my desires to be fulfilled... for my family to be happy and healthy... for my exboyfriend and I to reunite and for him to be saved... many think they're (ex and his new girl) going to break up soon enough, just like he and I did and want me to just keep a sharp eye out for him when it does. Like my mom told me, she hopes his new girl (my former best friend) breaks his heart so he can feel the pain and see what he has missed and what goes around comes around... mom is a Christian, but I feel the same way. I'm hoping she does break with him soon. But I digress. My entire life has been turmoil-ridden and broken... more than ever. I've been reaching to God all this time... and I see or feel or hear anything... open minded and all... nothing... Please God... I need a miracle right now before I may end up hurting myself... you prayer warriors are worried about me, and I'm sorry if I have been... but life is too tough for me right now... I hope I don't end up killing myself... even though it does feel right at the moment... God Bless.
~Mel-S
RE: Hurt... pain... agony... and suicidal thoughts - Guest - 01-12-2011 07:12 PM
Guest Wrote:If I knew how to report you posting here & talking about suicide I would because I find it upsetting.
I would ask that the site owner make a report as it seems you are serious & it needs to be reported.
Mel-S Wrote:Remember when I said I have already does this before and it doesn't work out for me? It doesn't. I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts since I was 13, possibly earlier... and only one person (my cousin who is a little younger than I am, and she also have been contemplating suicide since she was 9) knows about my suicidal thoughts as of late. I told my mom and dad once that if suicide wasn't wrong, I'd done it already... so they know how I feel at this point... my dad too was the same way... And I know about my little cousin's situations as well. Like her, it doesn't seem to work for her. I've been to therapy, counselors, etc... they always come back. I thank for the suicide hotline, but I have to decline since I did call it before, been to therapy and the whole works. Doesn't work for me, I'm afraid. I know suicide isn't a joke... but I've lost loved ones due to suicide... they too were saved. They too couldn't stand the turmoil of their lives... Some say they are in Heaven... some say they are in Hell despite being saved... They (my parents) does not know I've been suicidal since I was 13, yet they know I would have done it if it weren't wrong (so people say)... They think I don't think highly of suicide, but in reality I do... and I definitely do not want to put more stress or trouble that my parents are already in by going back to therapy for suicide. No. I will not do that... nor does it work, but I don't want to do that for the sake of my family. My prayers have been unanswered for almost a full year now... most of other ones have been unanswered for YEARS. My mom's smoking: worsened. My dad's health problems that's been there since 2004: worsened. I do not know what to do... I've called God over and over for help... I've tried listening for Him... I feel He hasn't answered me... or even reached to me for me reaching to Him... :( I know... I'm too young for this... but... life is harder than one might think at least for me, if you knew what has been going on from childhood to now... I would have killed myself years ago... still had those thoughts ever since... all I wanted was for my dreams to come true... all of them... since the age of 9, all I did was dream big... and years go by only to get disappointed slowly but surely... all I want are my desires to be fulfilled... for my family to be happy and healthy... for my exboyfriend and I to reunite and for him to be saved... many think they're (ex and his new girl) going to break up soon enough, just like he and I did and want me to just keep a sharp eye out for him when it does. Like my mom told me, she hopes his new girl (my former best friend) breaks his heart so he can feel the pain and see what he has missed and what goes around comes around... mom is a Christian, but I feel the same way. I'm hoping she does break with him soon. But I digress. My entire life has been turmoil-ridden and broken... more than ever. I've been reaching to God all this time... and I see or feel or hear anything... open minded and all... nothing... Please God... I need a miracle right now before I may end up hurting myself... you prayer warriors are worried about me, and I'm sorry if I have been... but life is too tough for me right now... I hope I don't end up killing myself... even though it does feel right at the moment... God Bless.
~Mel-S
Guest, you cannot report someone about suicide, because if you searched how many people actually posted prayer requests about suicide, whether it's themselves or loved ones, you would not be able to report them all. it's that many and it's something everyone faces in life, whether it's themselves or a loved one. You cannot report them for something like this. That's selfish, not helpful.
RE: Hurt... pain... agony... and suicidal thoughts - Guest - 01-12-2011 07:23 PM
I'm a healthcare professional & it is foolish not to take suicide threats seriously. Facebook has a place to report suicidal threats.
Selfish? As Christians we do not believe in abortion or murder.
Suicide is murdering of self.
Guest Wrote:Guest Wrote:If I knew how to report you posting here & talking about suicide I would because I find it upsetting.
I would ask that the site owner make a report as it seems you are serious & it needs to be reported.
Mel-S Wrote:Remember when I said I have already does this before and it doesn't work out for me? It doesn't. I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts since I was 13, possibly earlier... and only one person (my cousin who is a little younger than I am, and she also have been contemplating suicide since she was 9) knows about my suicidal thoughts as of late. I told my mom and dad once that if suicide wasn't wrong, I'd done it already... so they know how I feel at this point... my dad too was the same way... And I know about my little cousin's situations as well. Like her, it doesn't seem to work for her. I've been to therapy, counselors, etc... they always come back. I thank for the suicide hotline, but I have to decline since I did call it before, been to therapy and the whole works. Doesn't work for me, I'm afraid. I know suicide isn't a joke... but I've lost loved ones due to suicide... they too were saved. They too couldn't stand the turmoil of their lives... Some say they are in Heaven... some say they are in Hell despite being saved... They (my parents) does not know I've been suicidal since I was 13, yet they know I would have done it if it weren't wrong (so people say)... They think I don't think highly of suicide, but in reality I do... and I definitely do not want to put more stress or trouble that my parents are already in by going back to therapy for suicide. No. I will not do that... nor does it work, but I don't want to do that for the sake of my family. My prayers have been unanswered for almost a full year now... most of other ones have been unanswered for YEARS. My mom's smoking: worsened. My dad's health problems that's been there since 2004: worsened. I do not know what to do... I've called God over and over for help... I've tried listening for Him... I feel He hasn't answered me... or even reached to me for me reaching to Him... :( I know... I'm too young for this... but... life is harder than one might think at least for me, if you knew what has been going on from childhood to now... I would have killed myself years ago... still had those thoughts ever since... all I wanted was for my dreams to come true... all of them... since the age of 9, all I did was dream big... and years go by only to get disappointed slowly but surely... all I want are my desires to be fulfilled... for my family to be happy and healthy... for my exboyfriend and I to reunite and for him to be saved... many think they're (ex and his new girl) going to break up soon enough, just like he and I did and want me to just keep a sharp eye out for him when it does. Like my mom told me, she hopes his new girl (my former best friend) breaks his heart so he can feel the pain and see what he has missed and what goes around comes around... mom is a Christian, but I feel the same way. I'm hoping she does break with him soon. But I digress. My entire life has been turmoil-ridden and broken... more than ever. I've been reaching to God all this time... and I see or feel or hear anything... open minded and all... nothing... Please God... I need a miracle right now before I may end up hurting myself... you prayer warriors are worried about me, and I'm sorry if I have been... but life is too tough for me right now... I hope I don't end up killing myself... even though it does feel right at the moment... God Bless.
~Mel-S
Guest, you cannot report someone about suicide, because if you searched how many people actually posted prayer requests about suicide, whether it's themselves or loved ones, you would not be able to report them all. it's that many and it's something everyone faces in life, whether it's themselves or a loved one. You cannot report them for something like this. That's selfish, not helpful.
RE: Hurt... pain... agony... and suicidal thoughts - Guest - 01-12-2011 07:56 PM
Guest Wrote:I'm a healthcare professional & it is foolish not to take suicide threats seriously. Facebook has a place to report suicidal threats.
Selfish? As Christians we do not believe in abortion or murder.
Suicide is murdering of self.
Guest Wrote:Guest Wrote:If I knew how to report you posting here & talking about suicide I would because I find it upsetting.
I would ask that the site owner make a report as it seems you are serious & it needs to be reported.
Mel-S Wrote:Remember when I said I have already does this before and it doesn't work out for me? It doesn't. I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts since I was 13, possibly earlier... and only one person (my cousin who is a little younger than I am, and she also have been contemplating suicide since she was 9) knows about my suicidal thoughts as of late. I told my mom and dad once that if suicide wasn't wrong, I'd done it already... so they know how I feel at this point... my dad too was the same way... And I know about my little cousin's situations as well. Like her, it doesn't seem to work for her. I've been to therapy, counselors, etc... they always come back. I thank for the suicide hotline, but I have to decline since I did call it before, been to therapy and the whole works. Doesn't work for me, I'm afraid. I know suicide isn't a joke... but I've lost loved ones due to suicide... they too were saved. They too couldn't stand the turmoil of their lives... Some say they are in Heaven... some say they are in Hell despite being saved... They (my parents) does not know I've been suicidal since I was 13, yet they know I would have done it if it weren't wrong (so people say)... They think I don't think highly of suicide, but in reality I do... and I definitely do not want to put more stress or trouble that my parents are already in by going back to therapy for suicide. No. I will not do that... nor does it work, but I don't want to do that for the sake of my family. My prayers have been unanswered for almost a full year now... most of other ones have been unanswered for YEARS. My mom's smoking: worsened. My dad's health problems that's been there since 2004: worsened. I do not know what to do... I've called God over and over for help... I've tried listening for Him... I feel He hasn't answered me... or even reached to me for me reaching to Him... :( I know... I'm too young for this... but... life is harder than one might think at least for me, if you knew what has been going on from childhood to now... I would have killed myself years ago... still had those thoughts ever since... all I wanted was for my dreams to come true... all of them... since the age of 9, all I did was dream big... and years go by only to get disappointed slowly but surely... all I want are my desires to be fulfilled... for my family to be happy and healthy... for my exboyfriend and I to reunite and for him to be saved... many think they're (ex and his new girl) going to break up soon enough, just like he and I did and want me to just keep a sharp eye out for him when it does. Like my mom told me, she hopes his new girl (my former best friend) breaks his heart so he can feel the pain and see what he has missed and what goes around comes around... mom is a Christian, but I feel the same way. I'm hoping she does break with him soon. But I digress. My entire life has been turmoil-ridden and broken... more than ever. I've been reaching to God all this time... and I see or feel or hear anything... open minded and all... nothing... Please God... I need a miracle right now before I may end up hurting myself... you prayer warriors are worried about me, and I'm sorry if I have been... but life is too tough for me right now... I hope I don't end up killing myself... even though it does feel right at the moment... God Bless.
~Mel-S
Guest, you cannot report someone about suicide, because if you searched how many people actually posted prayer requests about suicide, whether it's themselves or loved ones, you would not be able to report them all. it's that many and it's something everyone faces in life, whether it's themselves or a loved one. You cannot report them for something like this. That's selfish, not helpful.
Yes but this isn't Facebook. And Christians do have abortions if of free will choice. And Christians commit suicide because of mental disorders or health reasons or personal issues. And suicide isn't a threat, it's a side effect to a certain disorder. Also could be a demonic attack on them to have them contemplate it. This isn't facebook, and again you need to see how many people actually have said things about suicide here. Thank you. It's serious, yes, but it doesn't mean you have to go and report someone for it. The act of reporting someone about this is foolish indeed if you so happen to look at other request with this topic.
RE: Hurt... pain... agony... and suicidal thoughts - adoring1 - 01-12-2011 08:19 PM
Mel, I want to share something with you that a very wise person mature in Christ told me many, many years ago. I did not really believe her when she said it until I saw it for myself...but I did see it...and nothing in this life has effected me more. This is what she told me...the date of your birth and the date of your death were written in the book of life before the foundation of the world. None of us is born...and none of us die without the permission of God. You may attempt suicide but if it is not your time...you will not die...however you can maim yourself to the point of losing your ability to walk or talk or a variety of things. Being very young at the time and very hurt and willful, I did not believe...and then a young woman I knew who had been made pregnant by a young man and then dumped by him after he forced an abortion onto her... tried to end her life. She failed, but she had chosen to jump off of a driving bridge into rocky and churning waters in the town where we lived. She broke her neck and spent the next 26 years in a wheel chair...with constant lung, bladder and skin infections the combination of which eventually took her life years later. Mel...I will tell you what I learned from that...God is in control...not us. God did not allow her to die out of mercy...he gave her time to repent and time to ask for his forgiveness...but there were consequences for her actions that reached much farther than her own losses. Her father died broken by the fact that his only daughter...suffered so. Her only brother spent time in jail for attempted murder of the young man who betrayed her. Her mother slowly lost her way and ended up dying from acute alcoholism. Only her father lived a normal life span and functioned and took care of her...but he never fully recovered from the loss of the life he had so hoped she would have. The young man that she pined for so also married a woman 2 years later and had 4 children...his response to the whole thing??? "She was a very disturbed girl and I knew I did not want to be married and have children with her". She just had too many problems for me to deal with. His marriage to the woman he chose is still on-going... This young woman gave up her future for nothing...NOTHING! Many years later I heard her speak at a church in our community...she had many regrets but most centered around the fact that she did not trust God and that she had tried to end her life and how it had impacted those who really loved her. Mel...the thing is...if you decide to do this...no-one can really stop you...but I suggest that you consider all that has been said here today. You say that life is worthless...and I understand your feelings...BUT despite how you feel...there is great worth...a mother who has loved you all your life...a father who provided for you until illness prevented him from being able to...youth and strength and decent health being among them. It is time for you to learn to stand...someday you will have to stand on your own...we all do. You need to focus on making your own life better...one day at a time...learn to drive...learn to cook...learn to see the good in small things. To find your way out of your personal hell...you must do your part...and when you do...God will do His. The first step may be to apologize to your God for threatening to kill yourself. He gave you life... it grieves him greatly...and then help your mother...give her support in this difficult time...she needs you now. Step outside of your own pain and help someone...it truly will make a difference in how you function and feel over time. Or choose not too...and continue to remain so self focused that the pain grows and grows...it really is a choice that is in your own hands. How do I know...because many years ago I WAS YOU! I chose to be different...I chose to trust God and do the therapeutic work...I chose life! It is my greatest hope that you will too.
RE: Hurt... pain... agony... and suicidal thoughts - Mel-S - 01-12-2011 09:10 PM
So... if I were to... not kill myself... and try to "make my life better (but how)" but still pray on these desires and hope they come true exactly the way I prayed for... then... will God work on making them true...? I've been through so much turmoil... I need these things to happen so bad... it's more of needing these things... I don't care for money or fame or to be something truly big... I'm just a person with big dreams... and the way things are right now, it's like they are not going to happen... none of them... and that's why I'm afraid of the future... that these things won't happen and my future would not be the future I wanted to have, you know? ...why I'm so afraid of life as I know it... I mean... I want to choose it, I want to choose life... it's just so hard to live it. I'm trying and hoping to not kill myself because I could lose my miracles because they might happen before I die... if I were to die... These suicidal thoughts have been going off and on since I was 13... because whenever I pray, things get worse or things happen the exact opposite way I pray for... like...
Like... If I don't kill myself... will there be a chance that my exboyfriend will come back to me, even though he has another girlfriend...? ... and be saved, if I don't kill myself...? I'm still pining for him so much... Will my mom stop smoking for good? ...Will my dad be healed from his health problems? ...will I actually be that animator I wanted to be since I was 9...? ...ever since these situations happened, I could not go to school for 2 days... and I could be 'dropped' from the courses or college all together if it were up to the college administration... will all of my desires, and they are my deepest ones, be fulfilled...? all of them...? I'm trying to trust God... and not take my life... but I'm scared at the same time... I'm scared...
God... I'm sorry! ...I know you're grieving for me... I know if I take my life, whether I live or die from it, there are consequences either way... and I'm scared of what my future holds... I don't want a life I do not want to have... meaning that my desires be unfulfilled and all hope in those are lost forever... I want a life where these desires that are my deepest are fulfilled and I can be happy again... I want things to turn around fast and now... my desires mean my life... and as you can see, I threatened to take my life when all seem lost and hopeless... You know, Lord, that I really want... and NEED these things to happen because I'm scared to know whether these things will happen or not, and I don't want a life I do not want to have... I don't want to give up on my desires... NONE of them, no matter what my life seems now (which is a wreck right now) and many things are unanswered or gone worse than before... but I still want these things... I'm trying my hardest to wait and have faith that all of these things will happen... I don't want my mom to die because of her smoking troubles... I don't want my dad to develop more health problems and succumb from them... I want them both to live long enough for me to get married to my exboyfriend... I don't want to marry anyone except him... Another man (whether I know him or not) is not what I want... I am holding myself off until You work on Him somehow, because even though he has another girlfriend, he still isn't saved... And I feel I can be that Godly wife for him... he said he wasn't happy with me, but things can change to have him miss me and be happy with me once more... just him I want to marry... otherwise, I don't want to marry at all if he isn't my husband at all... A house in Japan for us (me and my ex) to live in, which is where I wanted to go since I was a small child... kittens, for me to gain weight (which is nearly impossible right now thanks to these things happening and my schedule and eating fast food definitely won't help much)... all of these things and more is all I ask for... that's all I can ask for... I don't want anything else... Lord, I'm sorry... I want to have my life... but I'm just afraid to live it... I'm afraid... help me Lord... my future is at stake... a future only I could want... nothing more or less, just these things... All of these things mean everything to me... please help me... I can't take it anymore God... Forgive me... just show me how my life is worth living again... I'm going to try to not take my life... but I just don't know how to live my life and still expect these things to happen... will they happen Lord...? Will all of these things I could ask for happen...? Show me they will... please Lord, show me that they all will... they mean my life to me... Forgive me and help me please... please... My desires are as deep as the seas you created... please... please work on fulfilling them... but help me and show me my life is still worth living somehow... because i don't see it worth living anymore... please God... help me.
RE: Hurt... pain... agony... and suicidal thoughts - adoring1 - 01-13-2011 04:55 AM
Mel...there are no guarantees as to what God will do. None of us is God and only he knows what is best for you or me or any of us...and he will do what is best. But if you trust him and do the work that leads you to be stronger...he will honor that work and make you whole. That is the only guarantee that there is. The one thing that is certain is if you don't you will continue on as you are which will lead to things becoming worse and to your ultimate destruction. We have prayed for you, with you and over you for sometime now...it is time for you to decide if you will follow God or not and accept his leadership or not. We cannot negotiate with Him...as I shared...he is in control not us. But if we follow him and allow him to lead us our lives become better. When we can say honestly your will Lord and not mine as Christ did...we find our way to peace and to his protection. I pray you will come to embrace this and find peace and hope in your life. You can have a good life Mel...but it is all in how you choose to look at it and is truly up to you. Your part is to trust him and to accept his will. May the God of Creation reach your heart and continue to open your mind and guide you. In the name of Jesus...Amen!
RE: Hurt... pain... agony... and suicidal thoughts - Guest - 01-13-2011 05:29 AM
I looked up suicide attempts online & it is to be reported.
plain as day it says it.
Those that have abortions before they come to Christ may not know the difference that it is wrong, as many non Christians do not understand that life begins at conception. Those that are Christian & choose to do this fully knowing the difference are held to a different standard I believe by GOD because they do know.
We all pay a price for sin, whether here or on Judgement Day.
ANY & EVERY health professional will tell you that someone who is talking about suicide & seems intent on carrying out the act should be taken seriously & that there be intervention.
That is just common sense.
The Lord Gives some wisdom & sense & others remain foolish.
We all choose.
Guest, I would suggest that you go online & look up online suicide attempts. There are instructions of how to handle it.
You for some odd reason believe that I am posting this for vanity or attention. Enabling a person that is seriously contemplating suicide by not intervening somehow to help them is foolish.
Guest Wrote:Guest Wrote:I'm a healthcare professional & it is foolish not to take suicide threats seriously. Facebook has a place to report suicidal threats.
Selfish? As Christians we do not believe in abortion or murder.
Suicide is murdering of self.
Guest Wrote:Guest Wrote:If I knew how to report you posting here & talking about suicide I would because I find it upsetting.
I would ask that the site owner make a report as it seems you are serious & it needs to be reported.
Mel-S Wrote:Remember when I said I have already does this before and it doesn't work out for me? It doesn't. I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts since I was 13, possibly earlier... and only one person (my cousin who is a little younger than I am, and she also have been contemplating suicide since she was 9) knows about my suicidal thoughts as of late. I told my mom and dad once that if suicide wasn't wrong, I'd done it already... so they know how I feel at this point... my dad too was the same way... And I know about my little cousin's situations as well. Like her, it doesn't seem to work for her. I've been to therapy, counselors, etc... they always come back. I thank for the suicide hotline, but I have to decline since I did call it before, been to therapy and the whole works. Doesn't work for me, I'm afraid. I know suicide isn't a joke... but I've lost loved ones due to suicide... they too were saved. They too couldn't stand the turmoil of their lives... Some say they are in Heaven... some say they are in Hell despite being saved... They (my parents) does not know I've been suicidal since I was 13, yet they know I would have done it if it weren't wrong (so people say)... They think I don't think highly of suicide, but in reality I do... and I definitely do not want to put more stress or trouble that my parents are already in by going back to therapy for suicide. No. I will not do that... nor does it work, but I don't want to do that for the sake of my family. My prayers have been unanswered for almost a full year now... most of other ones have been unanswered for YEARS. My mom's smoking: worsened. My dad's health problems that's been there since 2004: worsened. I do not know what to do... I've called God over and over for help... I've tried listening for Him... I feel He hasn't answered me... or even reached to me for me reaching to Him... :( I know... I'm too young for this... but... life is harder than one might think at least for me, if you knew what has been going on from childhood to now... I would have killed myself years ago... still had those thoughts ever since... all I wanted was for my dreams to come true... all of them... since the age of 9, all I did was dream big... and years go by only to get disappointed slowly but surely... all I want are my desires to be fulfilled... for my family to be happy and healthy... for my exboyfriend and I to reunite and for him to be saved... many think they're (ex and his new girl) going to break up soon enough, just like he and I did and want me to just keep a sharp eye out for him when it does. Like my mom told me, she hopes his new girl (my former best friend) breaks his heart so he can feel the pain and see what he has missed and what goes around comes around... mom is a Christian, but I feel the same way. I'm hoping she does break with him soon. But I digress. My entire life has been turmoil-ridden and broken... more than ever. I've been reaching to God all this time... and I see or feel or hear anything... open minded and all... nothing... Please God... I need a miracle right now before I may end up hurting myself... you prayer warriors are worried about me, and I'm sorry if I have been... but life is too tough for me right now... I hope I don't end up killing myself... even though it does feel right at the moment... God Bless.
~Mel-S
Guest, you cannot report someone about suicide, because if you searched how many people actually posted prayer requests about suicide, whether it's themselves or loved ones, you would not be able to report them all. it's that many and it's something everyone faces in life, whether it's themselves or a loved one. You cannot report them for something like this. That's selfish, not helpful.
Yes but this isn't Facebook. And Christians do have abortions if of free will choice. And Christians commit suicide because of mental disorders or health reasons or personal issues. And suicide isn't a threat, it's a side effect to a certain disorder. Also could be a demonic attack on them to have them contemplate it. This isn't facebook, and again you need to see how many people actually have said things about suicide here. Thank you. It's serious, yes, but it doesn't mean you have to go and report someone for it. The act of reporting someone about this is foolish indeed if you so happen to look at other request with this topic.