Will you please pray for me...
I want to be a godly father and husband...
I have been "born again" abaout 23 years ago.
I have been sexually abused as a child..more than once. Used to take drugs. Have been in prison. After conversion though, rhings did not get better just like that. These past 20 some years have been hard, very heart.
I have been close to death a fue times...befor I got "saved" and after. At times because I disobeyed the lord, other times because of an Immune diffeiancy called A.I.D.S.
I look good and helathy and am of good physics. I share the ghospel were ever there's an opportunity. People even give their lifes to Jesus. I pray for the sick and they recover. I drive out demons and they have to go. I read the word in the morning and take communion( brad and wine). The Lord keeps telling me how much he loves me and that he convident in me. I teach at times and testify here and there. Great.
And yet it doesn't take much, especially after feeling resented by my wife that I go into sexual sin ( such as masturbarion and at times porn).
I have a 10 year old son and 15 year old daughter and a wonderful wife..and know axcactly what it does spiritually to them. Ths makes things ven worse.
Then I hear Paul Washer preach and I love it. What he has to say about youth and sexuality. I am so much in agreement. I mean I take walks with God, crying, shouting disputing with him about my thirst for wholeness and integrity and becoming a true priest and father and all that...
Will you please pray what ever the Lord feel leeds youto pray, because I know Gods not giving up on me nor will I on him.
But I hunger for wholeness....
If I sin I am like a car with a disfunctional engine...I produce a lot of smoke that blinds the traffic behind me...
Answer if you wish...