I hate being happy.
I don't know how to be happy.
I screw everything up.
I get pleasure out of this depression.
I hate that I can't love myself.
I don't love myself.
I want to cut.
I want to slit my wrists wide open and see the red fall around me.
I want to die.
Everywhere I go I see something that could take my life and I want to do it so badly.
God, why have You put me into this holding pattern? Why have You made me wait? I'm not strong enough to wait.
I don't want to let everyone down, though.
I don't want to let You down, God.
Help me, God. Because I can't do this.

I know how depression can get us down. I am dealing with depression myself at this moment. I am waiting for the answers from God too. Patience and to just wait on God to answer. I believe and put my faith in that he will. Like you, I need prayers too. But giving up is not the answer.

I believe you are in God's perfect plan. in natural it may seem otherwise to you. but just think about the fact that he made you ask others to pray about your situation. that tells me God has a plan for you and he is about to change everything you hate in to not only everything you love but also pleases him as your creator.

Pray with me. " Father God, I surrender to your will. I know that you love me and have a perfect plan for my life. Please deliver me quickly so that I shall bring you glory by sharing my life experiences with other in need. In Jesus Name, Amen!

Romans 10:13 FOR WHOSOEVER SHALL CALL UPON THE NAME OF THE LORD SHALL BE SAVED. (King James Version)

Dear Lord please have mercy on this guest.Please help them to know and believe the Truth.Please strengthen and lead them on Your way.Please help them to shutdown any door of evil from them life.Please help them to believe in Your Love and to follow You because You are the King of kings.Please help them to make friends according with Your will.
Thank You my Lord.

(04-17-2011 02:46 PM)Guest Wrote:  I hate being happy.
I don't know how to be happy.
I screw everything up.
I get pleasure out of this depression.
I hate that I can't love myself.
I don't love myself.
I want to cut.
I want to slit my wrists wide open and see the red fall around me.
I want to die.
Everywhere I go I see something that could take my life and I want to do it so badly.
God, why have You put me into this holding pattern? Why have You made me wait? I'm not strong enough to wait.
I don't want to let everyone down, though.
I don't want to let You down, God.
Help me, God. Because I can't do this.

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God Loves You!!! You are an image of our God all mighty!! God made you an image of him. God is Love, Peace, Joy!! Believe It and Stand Firm on his word!! Read his word every day and talk to him of your dreams and goals. The negative thoughts playing rewind constantly in your mind are the enemies of destruction. Do not allow the enemy to win!!!! God Loves You stand on his word. Rebuke all negative thoughts in Jesus name. Seek help. . . talk to a pastor a friend from church. God wanted you to live eternal life thats why he sent his beloved son to conquer victoriously to defeat the enemy and he resurrected on the third day to free us from sin. Just like Jesus be a Victor not a victim. you have a friend in me don't know you and i care about you. Stand in your ground in Jesus name, Amen

Father, You bless those who revere Your name and delight in Your commands. In the midst of inner turmoil or outer conflict may this person's will not be shaken for their heart remains steadfast trusting in You and Your overall plan for their life. Help them to remain firmly grounded as they overcome the daily obstacles common to all who live on earth. Help them to learn the valuable lessons along the way as they press on toward the goal for which You have called them heavenward in Christ Jesus I pray, Amen.