Today my anger got the better of me. My mom has got cancer - again - and this time she has been told that all medicine can do is help with the pain, and she is in a lot of pain. with limited resorces we are hardly keeping our heads above water. My mom is to ill to work and my brother is unemplyed, what little my dad earns is just enough to get him to and from work each day. My partner and I are carrying the fanancial strain and it is taking its toll on our already fragile relationship. we have to move and Lord only knows where the money is going to come from. Today I sat with my mom, who was holding back tears because the glass she was drinking from was to heavy and was hurting her wrists. she is practically bed ridden as she cannot sit up for long periods of time... this is heartbraking and really makes me angry with the world around me and feel myself moving further away from the Holy Spirit. Something small triggered an explosion of emotions and I told my dad that when my mom dies I will disown him and he and my brother can get on with things on their own. I feel aweful because in the moment I meant every word. I often find myself thinking that maybe things would be better if the Lord took my mom home. The last thing I want is for her to die. I would give anything to take her pain and depression away, I wish every day that she will go into spontaneous remission and that my brother will find a job and lives will start getting better, but this all seems like some far fetched fantasy. Lord please remove these evil thoughts and selfpity from my being. Please give my mom strength and hope and faith. Lord please bless her with healing, in your name all is possible. Please help my dad and I to make peace, these are old wounds that keep resurfacing, help us lay them down for good. Please be present in my relationship. Help us to grow closer and stronger in these challenging times and finally Lord, please help my brother who is well and able to find motivation and go out and work. Father, I pray that you will bring peace and love and patience and kindnes back into our home.
May your will be done - Amen

Things are getting tougher and tougher in this world. This situation you are in is so overwhelming from every angle. I can assure you that God wants to reveal His glory to you. He loves the "impossible" situations. Just hang in there and try to see the good in every situation and try to see how God is working. Ask what He is trying to do in you and with you. Just dont let anger in. You are on the right track asking Him to help you with anger and other emotions. I think that's what He wants from us. To recognize that we cant overcome our self on our own and to ask Him for help. Anger has been a huge issue for me lately. I've come to realize that I have to stand against it with all my being with the help of the spirit because otherwise we are acting exactly as the enemy wants. Anger does nothing but help satan gain ground in us and our lives.

Father, strengthen Hayley's spirit and help her to become the warrior in her family for you and help her to be at ease with any and all outcomes that are your will. Help her to see your goodness in her life and the situation with her family. Increase the radiance of the light within her and allow it to shine and those that are close to her. Rain your glory down her life and bring peace to this family so that they can overcome this incredibly difficult situation together.

Thank You!!!!!!

Dear Lord,please have mercy on this family.
In the Name of the Lord,right now I command to all the power of darkness and the curses to leave this family! Now!
I pray that Your will to be done in their lives.
Please open the gates of financial blessings in our lives.
You are the King of kings and Your Name is Wonderful.
Thank You my Lord