So here is a post that is vital to me. I have read the Bible and have faith in God. I know some don’t and I try to respect you on that. I believe in miracles – look at babies. In fact, sorry if this isn’t ambitious enough for some of you, but all I have truly wanted in life was to get married and have babies. I am almost 40 – could use some prayer on finding the love part ASAP. But as you all know I have asked for prayer regarding a blood test for Lupus Anticoagulants. This is not the same as Lupus. It is a blood disease dealing with clotting. When you have this disease it causes miscarriages, and actually is usually the cause of autoimmune diseases. I have 3 autoimmune diseases. The treatment to get pregnant and stay pregnant for 9 months is also risky. I have posted on the subject before and asked for prayer that the test would be negative. After all I had one weak positive test and 2 negative tests prior to this last test. The doctor that saw me in the hospital during my stay with pneumonia put the order in for the blood tests and posted results without interpretation. You are not really supposed to post these results, but he did and I, being the researcher and nervous, impatient, scared person that I am, did all the research, test samples, and comparing, and finally re-reviewed my results and it appears that I may actually have it. Actually it looks pretty bleak.
So as I said, I believe in miracles…is it possible results can change in a week (though I don’t get to find out until June 29th, but my doctor comes back next week) from a positive to negative. Can ink on paper change like water turning to wine? Can my blood change? Can results change? I need a miracle here and am begging for prayer. After all that has happened…I don’t think I can take anymore let alone lose my dream of children, which I am losing more and more each day with being sick, and not finding love as it is…to have another complication? To have another medication that makes me sick daily to take for the rest of my life – yes you have to be on it for life. Please, I am begging anyone for prayer…share with your friends or family or church, I need all the help I can get. I am sick with a major migraine right now and have already been snapped at and scolded and so forth twice tonight for even looking at the results. (Despite my parents printing out their blood tests.)

And I am trying to recover from bi-lateral pneumonia on top of this. Please, I need a miracle that this test will somehow be negative.