Hi all, my name is Christopher. I have been lonely for 30yrs.... abusive childhood and lonely. most of my friends are married and I am always alone. Christian but felt god is away from me.

I wanted to commit suicide on my 30th birthday but hope god will forgive me and still bring me to heaven. Have lost all purpose and sense of direction in living in this lonely world.

I think you will regret suicide. The Lord calls some to suffer more than others for a reason, possibly so that it exposes another when you ask for help & maybe they don't reach out, or that it shows Christian strength when someone does.. in other words there is a reason for our suffering IT IS NOT IN VAIN.
Perhaps try an antidepressant of if you are genuinely suicidal, perhaps God is calling you to humble yourself to ask for intensive help, which is not easy. There are many reasons why we suffer.
PLEASE do not kill yourself. If nothing else post on these types of boards to ask for prayer & Holy Spirit Intercession. God created us for a purpose & HE Decides when our time to go is.. my friend in Christ, please don't do it. Know that Christian love is by faith not by sight & you do make a difference, it just not be as you can see right now. In Christ & for HIS HEALING Upon your life.

Father give streng to my brother. I know what he's feeling and You know better then me. Please heal his pain. And bring hopes to him.
God may You have a plan for his life.
Protect him.
Show him You care about his life.
In JESUS NAME AMEN

Lord bring into Christopher life a reason for living and fill him with your joy until his cup overflows. For only you can help us in this situation better than any pills. You can bring him put of the dark tunnel he feels he is in, and bring him to your light so he can be a letter written my your hand for the world to see that you live in him and him in you. Enlighten him Lord and give him wisdom so he can be a great witness for you. Give him the peace that surpasses all understanding, which only you can give us. I pray and thank you in advance in Jesus Christ Precious Name, as I give you all the Honor and the Glory Heavenly Father to whom all power belongs, Amen!
"Again I say unto you, That if two of you shall agree on earth as touching any thing that they shall ask, it shall be done for them of my Father which is in heaven." Matthew 18:19

Dear Father God, please guide Christopher, let him know he is loved. In Jesus name i pray Amen

Christopher as your sister in Christ I beg of you not to kill yourself, die to yourself and give yourself as a living sacrifice to God by serving Him. If you are willing to face death then put it to good use, become a missionary, visit those in prison, go and preach to the homeless and helpless. God can use you for great things. I will continue to pray for you/God Bless

Lord, please take all thoughts of this from Christopher. Lord, please lead and guide him to do service for You. Lord, please guide him to the one You have planned for him. In this I ask in Your name,Jesus.Amen.

Hi Christopher

as I read your request I had to smile...you are being lied to Christopher for there is no truth in this..
NOT ONLY ARE YOU HIS CHILD , ..YOUR GOT A PART OF HIS NAME
BOY HOW BLESSED IS THAT...WHAT A PRIVILEGE [which means giving a SPECIAL FAVOR]..do you understand what I am saying
CHRIS TO PHER..no wonder the enemy dosen,t like you..

YOU HAVE ALREADY GOT YOUR PURPOSE AND PART OF HIS AWESOME AND POWERFUL NAME
YOU GOT IT NOW.. KEEP ON TRUCKING..what you are experiencing many of us have and are going through..did you get that going through..bye SEE YOU ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE TUNNEL

Dear Lord,please have mercy on Christopher.
In the Name of the Lord,right now I command to all the power of darkness and the curses to leave Christopher! Now!
I pray that Your will to be done in their life.
You are the King of kings and Your Name is Wonderful.
Thank You my Lord