to spare you all the long and boring details, I will just say this:
I am not doing good at all and I was thinking of killing myself. but do you think this would be murder? do you think I would still go to heaven if I am a true believer?

I know its wrong but is it murder under God's eyes ?

I believe in my opinion that nobody is entitle to take away someone else's life including their own. To destroy a life God has made in his own image is going against God will, for he is the only one that says when our life is over, not us. The bible tells us in Exodus 20:13 Thou shalt not kill. Murder is killing, that not only includes, you but killing another person too. If we do that, it is a sin, therefore you are domed to eternal darkness, because after you are dead there is no more chances of repenting, and asking for forgiveness. The thief on the cross did before dying, he was forgiven by Jesus because he repented before dying, not after death.
Years ago I went through a period my life when I wanted to end it all, because I was suffering so much, and I had no hope. I thank God today, I didn't do it, because He finally heard my cries of despaired after I learned what he wanted me to learn out of it. Today I am stronger for it, and my life turned around, he made my life so much worth living, and answered my prayers better than I was hoping for. Since then I have lived many, many happy years, and in my tribulations He has always been there to hold my hand. Even through the lose of loved ones, specially my own child, Praise His Holy Name! Only He is our strong rock!!!
What put me through those years was reading His holy word, specially the Psalms, listening to Christian music, and praying with faith that no matter how dark it seems God will answer me. In the meantime, He give us the strength to see us thought it all. Here is one
verse from the Psalms I kept repeating most of the day, The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. – Psalm 18:2
Lord help this person overcome whatever situation they are facing, give them your peace in the middle of their storm, and the strength to see them through it all as you did for me. Remove from them those evil thoughts the enemy is putting in their mind. I pray and thank you in advance in Jesus precious name amen.
Believe His promises to us including to you, see what He tell us in His word in: Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Below is a beautiful poem that gave me hope, please read it, and may the Lord bless you immensely.
The Footprints Prayer
One night I had a dream...
I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord, and Across the sky flashed scenes from my life. For each scene I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; One belonged to me, and the other to the Lord. When the last scene of my life flashed before us, I looked back at the footprints in the sand. I noticed that many times along the path of my life, There was only one set of footprints.
I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in my life This really bothered me, and I questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, You would walk with me all the way; But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, There is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why in times when I needed you the most, you should leave me.
The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child. I love you, and I would never, never leave you during your times of trial and suffering. When you saw only one set of footprints, It was then that I carried you.

Lord help this person, also cover them with the precious blood of Jesus so the enemy will stay away from them. Give them hope for living, and to love and serve you with all their heart. I pray in the mighty name Jesus Christ amen.

Dear Father have this person be alright and not done this terrible act, direct them to your path Lord. May they feel your love embracing them now and always, they need you Lord now more than ever, help them I pray in Jesus name amen.

Lord have mercy on this soul, protect them from evil forces, also give them hope to keep on going. In Jesus name I pray amen.

Lord please help this person in need of your protection.

Our God is a very powerful God & this 2 shall pass, just believe it. This site is here for you please don't let Satan take control, put God in charge & everything will work out.

Go to you tube and watch videos about near death experience and suicide...Do not kill yourself. Your life is not for you too take. The videos will show you that people who died after killing themselves did not like the circumstances they found after death. There are plenty of accounts of people who died and were brought back and non of them are pleasent. Suicide is not the answer. Find help.

Lord show this dear and troubled one that their life is precious in Your eyes. Help the glorious truth of the Gospel to shine forth in their life so that they would know that You loved them so much that You gave your precious son Jesus as a ransom for their life. Help this truth to resonate to the very core of their soul. Lift the oppression and negative issues in their life so that they might feel the joy of life once more. Draw them to You Lord so that they would surrender their life to You and know true joy and peace and the indwelling of Your precious Holy Spirit.

I pray this in Jesus precious and mighty name,

Amen

Lord have your guardian angels surround this precious child of yours, and bring them out of that terrible pit they have fallen into. Cover them from head to toe with the precious blood of Jesus Christ as your clean them from their sins. Give them a reason to want life, and to sing your praises for your wonderful love toward them. May they become a great witness for you toward others, of the love and hope you give us even in our most terrible times in our life's. I pray in the most powerful name, name above all names Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior, Amen.

Yes, Killing is murder and that is a sin. Don't you know the 10 commandments says, Thou shall not kill" ?
Lord have mercy on this person, help them in whatever situation they are facing. Help them to see that committing suicide is not the answer, for they will suffer more on the other side if they commit that sin. Give them the strength they need to face their situation as they turn it over to you. I the name of Jesus I pray amen.